prove me wrong (joshler)

•chapter 7•

time passes and i look over at the clock to see the time is 6:40 pm and my mother asks the doctor if they could go down to the food court and grab some food. they did so and promised they'd bring me something up too... i was on "suicide watch" so that means someone had to be with me at all times.... right frickin next to me. her name was aiesha and she was just playing on her phone and didn't give two dipcraps of what i did. and then i noticed that my mom left her purse here.

josh

i reached over and grabbed my phone out of my moms bag and quickly found joshs contact to send him a text.

ty: hey josh i need to tell you something.

josh: ah hey what's up!

ty: im in the hospital

josh: oh no ty what's wrong?

ty: my parents found out ive been cutting and they say it beyond their control...

josh: im coming to visit you.

ty: i don't think you can and i don't even know what unit im going to... idk what to do man im so scared.

josh: hey i need you to stay strong ok❤️ you can do this how long will you be there?

ty: i don't know man im terrified.

josh: tyler i will see you again and we will pick up where we left off alright. focus on yourself and your well being and ill be here for you when you come back because i know you will get through this.

ty: their taking my phone im not supposed to have it.

josh: well i figured and we won't be able to text but i know you can do this ty :)) stay alive

ty: i can't josh im so anxious and im just so sad i don't want to be here anymore.

josh: stay alive tyler, stay alive for me

...

ty: alright i have to go now my moms here don't tell anyone im here and i promise i will stay alive gtg bye

and so then my mother took my phone and asked why i had it and i just told her i was talking to a friend of mine about the project that i couldn't help in. she nodded and put my phone back in her purse.

my mom brought me up some pizza and a soda and i ate the whole thing in a matter of seconds...
the entire time it was just me, my mom, my dad, and aiesha (my monitor) in the room and no one said a word...

i guess there was just nothing to be said.

a knock was heard at the door. "hey guys, tyler! we have a room for you in a waiting unit until we can take you some place else." she said with a smile. i was told to get up and follow her but my parents were held back to sign a few papers. the lady walked quite fast and she wore heels which made that really annoying click every time she took a step. we walked down a hallway and we went down into the basement and she scanned a few cards and punched in a few passwords to get through some doors but the she opened another door and we were in another hallway and everything just was a blur and everyone that passed by me in the hall seemed to stare so i crossed my arms so no one would see my wrists.

finally she took a right into a door that read "temporary discharge bound observation unit"
before she was able to open it i asked
"what does that mean?"
she answered back "well so you won't be here forever tyler, we don't specialize in your behavioral health so we keep you in here till one of the behavioral Health hospitals has room for you to come in and you work on yourself there. but for now you will stay here."
"h-how long?" i ask her and i really realized how long i might be here.
"well Tyler it really depends on which hospitals have room for you."
she punched in a passcode and the door beeped and opened.
we walked past people sitting at a counter.
"is this the Tyler?" one of them asks
"yes" says the doctor with clicky heels. "which room is he again?"
"191" another one says.

we walk down the short hallway and i see people wearing the same big floppy scrubs as me. one was chunky a little bit. she had short brown hair in a 2009 emo kid style. the other was very skinny and was darker skinned. Hispanic maybe? no she's more middle eastern but her eyes were squinty so maybe indonesian? she had medium dark brown hair and she had her legs crossed concentrating on the game of cards in front of her. oh yeah i forgot to mention they were playing cards. then there was a boy, he had short black hair which was spiked up and he was the skinniest of them all. he was laughing and smiling with the rest of them.... but there was one thing they all had in common. they all had cuts.
all of them had them on their wrists, the skinny girl with the medium black hair had some on her wrists and face. the boy had some on his neck and the girl with the short brown hair had a lot on her arms.
"HI!!" the one with the short brown hair called out at me.
it honestly startled me a little bit.
"ooh! yay someone new! what's your name?!" the one with the medium black hair asked me.
i kinda chuckled a little bit. no one has ever been this happy to see me.

the doctor told me i was welcome to play with them. so i pulled up a chair and sat down.
"hi" i said as i sat
"hey sup bro im maleah" said the girl with the short brown hair. "16... tyler is it?" she asked.
"yeah um.... im 17" i added
the skinny girl with medium black hair was looking around.
"and you?" i said poking her.
"oh yeah um sorry uhhh... im ella, 15" she said with a closed lip smile. and she looked at the boy
"carter um 17" he said with a toothy smile and it kinda made me smile too.

we ended up playing BS and we got the laughs going and lots of conversation going about how we hate school and stupid things our friends do and i was honestly having a really great time until the clock hit 11 pm and we had to go back in our rooms.
i was directly across ella and maleah was next to her and so they both waved to me good night as my sliding glass door sealed closed and a curtain was drawn so not that much light from the hallway could come through except for the very edge because that's where my monitor has to watch me at all times which was kinda not that big a deal....

good job Tyler ending up in here... now it may be fun but wait till you see what I can do to you...

i didn't answer back and he didn't come back but i just burst into tears about not being home... Or in my own bed and asking myself

"am I really here"

agh don't hate me but this chapter was honestly so hard to write and I'll explain later but um I really hope you guys enjoyed and I'll update again tomorrow and always remember to vote and leave some comments and share this story and yay! This got to over a hundred reads!!
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