Mackenzie pov
The worst feeling is knowing that the only thing keeping you happy is slowly being taken away.. Very slowly. My parents always told me not to let guys define my happiness but when my happiness is him.. And the happiness has been with you for 3 years.. It's gonna impact you. More than anyone would ever understand.
I cuddled up into Taylor as much as I possibly even could. "Babe." He said laughing. I smiled into his shirt that smelled like his body wash. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head. I try to spend as much time with him as possible.. Since the estimated time.. Is 5 more months. Yea you heard right. Taylor has leukemia. He has for the past year and it's only getting worse. He just got his first dose of kemo yesterday. I sat up alittle and kissed his nose. "I love you." I said. "I love you too baby girl." He looked into my eyes and held the gaze until he motioned for me to lay back down.
People always like to compare the movie fault in our stars to me and Tay's relationship.. It's quite hurtful since that was a movie. I just tell them that we have gone through it all the way and walk away. Taylor started stroking my hair. He's definitely gotten a lot worse.. His energy is gone but he always wants to do something. His tan skin isn't tan, but more pale. My baby just isn't himself anymore and everyday I have to put on a smile for him. I'm over at his house a lot. Every morning I come over at 10 to help out his mom. She won't let me spend the night. We're 19 but whatever. I guess she in charge since he lives under her house. I do whatever I can to see him.
A/N : if you got this far, keep reading I swear there is some drama and romance up ahead :))
