The Weather in July

Prologue

Prologue

It was another one of those nights that you are not altogether sure really did happen. The oddly conversations you had about everything and nothing with a stranger, all your hatred and sadness poured to someone who you just met a couple of seconds ago.

The night was alive. The room is blinding with lights, the sound of the crowd and music was deafening. I wasn't really sure why i decided to come, i barely drink and i hate crowded places. I wander around with my red cup half-filled finding a spot where I can breathe air not tobacco.

Sweat flicked up into the air as people try to dance to the most popular song on the charts right now. As I made my way to the backyard of this house, a girl pushed me, spilling the left alcohol on the floor.

"I'm sorry." She said as her friends dragged her before I could even react. I nodded.

There are things I miss that I shouldn't and those I don't that I should. My mind is a complex place. It's a collection of fractured, dismembered memories. I sighed as I sit by the pool, dipping my feet into the cold water.

Just like any other teen, I am still in the process of self-discovery, the typical who am i? what i want in life kind of thing. It's just different experiencing all this dilemma without your favorite person. This is my first time going to a party without him, it feels strange and empty.

He was always so different from what the people saw. He was more than his looks, the achievements he brought home, the nice obedient kid, he possessed more than all the superficial things.

I looked up at the sky,

"The world still continues without you." I sighed.

I wish I knew why he left. What his reasons were. Why he changed his mind.

"Hey." I wiped my eyes before turning my face to Yuji. I gave him a faintly smile and gestured him to sit next to me.

"You know, it's okay." He said. "Okay?" I asked.

"To cry," He took a breath and tapped my head. "You don't have to be strong all the time. Vulnerability isn't something you should be afraid of." He tried to comfort me. I nodded, I really don't know what to respond to that.

"I'm sorry. You don't deserve this." He then spoke again breaking the silence. "Deserve what?" I asked.

"This world," He paused and sighed. He looked up at the blank sky of July. "It's too cruel for someone like you." I looked at him with confusion in my eyes.