Rather Be On My Own

Chapter Twenty Three: Maybe I'm correct

When the pad of my thumb touches his forehead, he finches. I also feel a tingling sensation in my body. I know that in the back of my mind somewhere, the feelings for him are alive. Yes, I don't like to admit it. I know I try so hard to be strong but deep inside I'm just a broken glass, which can't be fixed.

He's not the sole reason why I'm broken but he was like a fuel to the fire in my heart. Feelings are useless. At least, that's what I'd love to believe.

When I look at his eyes, I see they are already looking at me. To inform you, they were looking at me intensely. I wiggled in my seat due to the uncomfortable situation. But my eyes were glued to his for a known reason.

I felt like I was coming in between Isabelle and him. I absolutely hate those kind of girls, I mean why would you interfere into some happy couple's life. I didn't want to be a girl like that so I backed away abruptly. Luke remained gloomy.

I wondered if Luke and Isabelle were happy. I don't mean to be rude but that girl is super creepy. I don't understand why would she leave her boyfriend, when he needs her. Plus, Luke didn't seem to be affected by her presence. His face didn't light up like it should. But maybe I'm just confusing myself.

You're jealous, Al. I ignored my stupid thoughts.

I felt that Luke wanted to tell something to me. As if begging for knowing something. This Luke is so different. Previously, he used to blabber so much but now it's different as I've mentioned. I can't believe Canada did this to my poor boy. Whoa! Did I just say that?

I have no clue why I always do this myself? I don't know why I tell everyone to stop feeling. When, here I am getting all carried away by my destructive feelings. I need to stop.

"Can I ask you something?" I got surprised because it wasn't Luke asking me but the other way round.

"Sure. Since when do you have to ask?" He said in a 'duh' tone.

Since you were no longer mine. I thought, though he was never actually mine.

I wasn't in my senses. Just too carried away. " I'm just asking as a friend because I care."

He gave me a reassuring nod as if telling he knows that I care.

"Are you happy with Isabelle?" I can't believe I was so straight forward. What will he think of me.

The color of his face changed and he froze. I'd die to know the reason behind it.

He opened his mouth. " I'm sorry, Alise."

I frowned at his face which was filled with guilt. I was addled.

Before he could clarify, the door opened and entered Sam and Jake. I totally forgot that they were coming. They are late though.

What a perfect timing! Just when something useful was going to happen. I was happy as they came because the tension in the air will go away soon.

I got up from my seat and walked towards them. I hugged them both.

"Aren't you both too early?" I retorted sarcastically smacking Jake's arm and sent death glares towards Sam.

"Oww. That's because of your best friend." He said rubbing the spot I hit him.

" I didn't hit him that hard. Trust me, Sam." I played victim to tease Sam. " Stop over reacting, drama queen." I said turning to Jake.

"Shut up." Sam walked towards Luke and so did Jake.

They both stood near the foot of his bed and started inquiring about his health. Which was monotonous as it's the same question with same answer.

"So you are finally with Sam?" Luke tried to sit up but faced difficulty so I moved forward to help him. I held his arm as he held onto my shoulder for support and then he managed to sit as I quickly as I straighten his pillow. He laid back after that.