Rather Be On My Own

Chapter Twenty Three: Maybe I'm correct

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Allison's P.O.V

Recap: Luke has an accident so Allie comes to see him though Alex wasn't comfortable coming,he accompanies her. Allie, senses Mrs. Caldwell's weakness and asks Alex to take his aunt to her home. Now Luke and Allie are left alone in the hospital cabin.

That was just to refresh your memories as I'm writing Allie's P.O.V after a few days. Though I hope, you guess remember the last chapters.:-)

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I pull the stool near his bed and look at the watch seeing it's just 5:40 p.m. how will stay with him alone for so long.

He breaks the silence by saying something that makes me raise my eyebrows. Like what the hell?

This is me who was all set to move on but guess what the fate is actually being cruel to me.

"Thanks for still caring, Alise." He said with his eyes clouded with some feeling I suppose as guilt.

What does he mean? What is he trying to say after all the time I've hated myself for thinking about him? I don't quite know how to feel about his sudden remorse. Or maybe he's showing formality. I need to stop over thinking.

I look away from him and eye the painting hanging on the wall. I. Am. So. Coward. I think. Because being in the same room with him makes me want to dug a hole and get inside it.

"Alise." He brings me back to earth.

"Yes?" I shift my gaze back to him. Al, you can do it. Face him!

"I said thank you." I nod my head before mouthing 'welcome' with a fake smile.

It was followed by a painful silence which was of five minutes but it seemed like ages.

I openly looked at Luke's face which had it's eyes at the ceiling. I realized that he hasn't changed much except the bags under his eyes, the scars from the accident and the previously smug face of him was now blank. Okay not blank but thoughtful. Since when has this guy started thinking?

With that he turned his face and smirked as he saw me staring at him. Oh no! I guess my cheeks have been engulfed in red. I look away instantaneously waiting for a conceited reply. I was preparing myself to give him a strong comeback as well.

But instead he asked. " Alex is a nice guy. Isn't he?" I could see sadness in his eyes. I couldn't figure out the reason though.

My heart was telling me that the feelings between us were mutual but my brain managed to show me the real thing that, there is no chance that he felt something as he was already with someone. A girl who is lot more pretty than me.

"Yes, I guess. But sure, you both love yourself." I say smartly raising my eyebrows. For which I earned a chuckle from him.

" Everyone should love themselves but in my case I'm just to awesome not to love myself because of insecurities." Luke said returning back to his old self. I am glad he's recovering from the accident.

I wanted to ask him why he went to 'The Woods' and how the accident happened. But I thought there's no benefit reminding him of the painful memory. He has a big scars on the right side of his forehead. It's sad because I know how much this boy loves his face.

My hand itches to touch his face. I ignore it but my yearning gets bigger. Absent mindedly, I feel my right hand closing the distance between it and his fresh scar which wasn't bandaged. It was small and not deep one.