Selena Gomez/You

chapter 13

We were at Laurens apartment and I was actually enjoying Laurens company, I felt shitty because I barely slept the past few days and I can't stop how much it hurts just thinking about it, its been a few days and Camila and Lauren went and picked up my stuff apparently Selena was sleeping in my hotel room so they had to sneak around and they left the keycard and a necklace she gave me. I've had countless calls from Selena, Demi and Josh but I don't respond until both Lauren and Cami are busy and Demi calls so I answer "hello?" I say and I hear a realize of a breath "thank god you're okay we've been worried sick!" I scoff "you might be worried but they weren't to worried the other night" I say with no emotion and I hear shuffling on the other side "I know she messed up and shes sorry, the kiss didn't mean anything, Josh even admitted it was all him and he went back home because he knows how much you love each other" I pause and think of what to say "yeah she loves me so much eh? so much she'd rather just lie and pretend it didn't happen" I hear Demi sigh "look she meant well-" I cut her off because I know where shes going with it "you are not going to make her sound like she was trying to protect me no she was trying to save her and josh's ass" I hang up and throw my phone on the couch running my fingers though my hair. I was just sitting here staring at the t.v, its not on and I'm really not sure how long I've been sitting here but the door opens making me look over and I see Lauren with a weird facial expression "whats wrong?" she sighs stepping out of the way and it was Demi and I look away back to my spot and ignore her "y/n you can't ignore me or hang up now we have to talk about this" I keep looking straight. Demi gave up after repeated attempts "fine you'll just have to listen to her yourself" my head fly's to her "what do you mean?" she doesn't respond but a guitar starts to play making me look behind me and face the girl I love.

Ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh

Can you feel me
When I think about you?
With every breath I take
Every minute
No matter what I do

My world is an empty place
Like I've been wandering the desert
For a thousand days (oh)
Don't know if it's a mirage
But I always see your face, baby

I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain (oh, whoa)
Whoa, oh, whoa

The stars are burning
I hear your voice in my mind (voice in my mind)
Can't you hear me calling?
My heart is yearning
Like the ocean that's running dry
Catch me, I'm falling

It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet
Won't you save me?
There's gonna be a monsoon when you get back to me, oh, baby

So let this drought come to an end
And make this desert flower again
I'm so glad you found me
Stick around me,
Baby baby baby oooh

It's a world of wonder with you in my life
So hurry, baby, don't waste no more time
I need you here, I can't explain
But a day without you is like a year without rain (oh, whoa)

I was speechless, I opened my mouth a few times but nothing came out "I know your mad and I'm sorry I never meant for it to happen and he surprised me and I thought of nobody but you and I hated every second, when I kissed you the morning after it felt like everything fell back into place and I was whole again so I told him not to tell you, it would just hurt you and it would destroy me because I love you so much and I can't lose you, I wont so I understand if you need more time but I wont stop, I promised you" I let a few tears fall and we were in a staring contest "I don't know" she steps forward placing the guitar on the couch and then stands a few feet away from me "I just need you to know how much I love you and need you, it was unintentional and" I cut her off "you also promised to stay true" she closes her mouth and I can tell shes thinking of what shes about to say "I know and I know I broke that promise but" I finally find my voice "but nothing Selena you cheated and then wanted to hide it! Do you even understand how much that hurt me?!" She looked surprised but it quickly replaced with hurt "I know I'm sorry and it hurts me knowing I'm hurting you" I turn and start walking away "you can't just leave were in a conversation" I stop and turn my head "were over, this conversation is over and I'm over this, I can't anymore I promised myself never to stay with a cheater, it would've been different if you told me the morning I came back but you didn't and now you have to lie in the bed you made" I walk up to Laurens room and close the door softly behind me going into her bed cuddling into her blankets and soon as I breathe in I'm hit with Lauren and it fills me with tingles and butterfly's but I shake it off thinking it's the stress and suddenly I hear yelling so I get up walking to the door "no you've caused enough go back to your hotel and leave her alone" I peak down seeing Lauren blocking the stairs "you can't tell me I can't see my girlfriend you jealous whore" I was pissed and stepped out in a low threatening voice "if you ever talk to Lauren that way again you will never have a chance with me again! Shes done nothing but be there for me picking up the pieces you broke!" My voice starts going higher in volume and power "she comforted me when I needed it the most with no complaints and you will not disrespect her in her own home!" Lauren walks up to where I am shaking in anger because she has no right to do this! "Hey calm down hun" she grabs my hand making me face her and tears run down my face "you need to calm down before you give yourself a panic attack" she pulls me into her and rubs my back gently and I open my eyes to see a salty looking Selena "get out" i lowly say and Lauren pulls back enough to look at me "what" I didn't look at her I stared at Selena "I said get out! I don't want to see you! Go back to Josh I'm sure he'd loved to know your available or does he like ruining relationships?" Her face turns angry "you're overreacting!" My face goes completely expressionless "I'm overreacting? So you wouldn't be pissed if I did this then" I turn to Lauren and kiss her hard and soon as our lips touch it was almost like kissing Selena but not as perfect as Selena feels but it was amazing like she was addicting and I deepen it because I felt like I needed more but she pulls back and we're both breathless and shocked cause the effect of the kiss suddenly I feel me and Lauren being separated and I see Selena raise her hand to Lauren and Laurens eyes widen but before she could do anything I grab her wrist "I suggest you leave before you really do kill any chance you have with me" I say bitterly and all the anger leaves her face and she nods looking to the ground and I let her go and she goes down the stairs and I look to Lauren who's already looking at me "thank you" I smile softly at her as a blush covers my face and I look to the ground "you've made this situation a million times more complicated with that kiss" I look up and she smiles "good I'm planning on wooing you before you make a choice" I shuffle my feet "I don't want to hurt you if you're not the one I choose" she steps forward taking my face in her hand "then I'll handle it like an adult but for now you're single and have nothing to worry about we'll be cool for the summer" I laugh loudly and she smiles at me as I laugh "way to quote my exs best friend" she giggles and I hear somebody's clear their throat behind us and I look behind me to see Cami "I'm sorry for the interruption but Demi would like a word y/n" I sigh and follow her because I honestly trust Demi, its not like she knew about the kiss she was just as pissed as I was so I come face to face with Dems "hey" I say and she smiles "so you're not ignoring me?" I laugh looking at the ground "sorry I just didn't wanna talk about the topic you were trying to talk to me about" her smile fades a bit "I know but you have to shes the love of your life and you're hers, you are perfect for each other and she feels terrible and wishes things were different" tears spring into my eyes "but they aren't! She cheated plain and simple and it hurt more than anything that has happened to me before! She's the one I want for the rest of my life but how can I be with her when she wouldn't even tell me she kissed somebody else?!" She nods "I know and I've been where you been and to be honest I didn't take them back but because they didn't try but if Selena try's do you think you'd consider forgiving her?" I run my hand through my hair "of course but she really had to make up for it and truly is sorry" Demi gives me her award winning smile "don't worry she will knock your socks off!" She try's to run out but I grab her "not in gifts either I swear if she just try's to buy my love and forgiveness I'm not taking her back she has show me shes for real and isn't just a game" she nods and I let her go thinking she'd run off but she hugs me tightly "just this means more than the world to her, she's going to get you back" she pulls back too look at me "she promised you" she runs off and I laugh but it comes out as a cry/laugh because I don't know how to feel, I can't just take her back I promised myself I wouldn't stay with a liar and or a cheater but I love her more than anything I just can't give up but then again she gave up when she kisses him or he kissed her whatever went down but does it make a difference? If he kisses her its not as bad as if she started it. I was knocked out of my thoughts by Lauren "hey are you okay?" I look to Lauren and I fake a smile "yeah fine" she smiles sympathetically "so are you staying in Miami cause our apartment is completely open we have an extra room" I shake my head "I have to find a job and go back maybe stay with Andrew for a bit till I find-" I'm cut off "or you can stay here and I could give you a job on the fifth harmony tour-" I cut her off this time "I'm not taking another hand out job Lauren, I'm capable of finding a job that doesn't involve celebrity's I'm already over it" she laughs "so you're over me?" I smirk "if you offer me a job damn right I am" she shakes her head laughing "fine find your own job but could you find one here?" Without thinking I said "but if I don't get a job in Los Angeles Selena won't stop by like she did when I had my last job" she gives a tight smile "sorry I -" she raises her hand to tell me to stop talking "I don't expect you to stop loving her all of a sudden I hope to change your mind over time so don't worry I want to know what's going on in your head" I give a half ass smile "Lauren I don't want you giving your hopes up because I care about you alot, you guys have shown me in a little time that I can care and love people on a deep level not just a half ass relationship that didn't really leave the work place but I don't see us being anything more because I have to be honest the kiss was amazing and everything good but it wasn't quite Selena, it wasn't the deep feeling I get with her, you're like kissing my best friend I care so much about and hers its a soulmate kiss, you'll understand when you get that kiss but I can't get your hopes up, I need you in my life, I love the random texts through out the day just like I love Dallas's texts too the same way and that's what's going through my head" she smiles hugging me "that's okay, you should know that right there is the reason I'm going to try to get you but I know 120% that you will end up with her, the passion you hold just by talking to her makes me extremely jealous" I laugh and she pulls back and kisses me randomly and it's the same feeling and I find my mind swaying to Selena and she pulls back "you're wrong that was a pretty deep kiss to me" I smile "there's so many things right with the kiss-" she cuts me off looking into my eyes "but I'm not Selena" I sigh "I want it to be because I trust you more than anybody right now" she smiles softly "then trust me, she had her chance now give me just one please" she asks hope shining in her eyes and I cave "okay" I say with a smile and her face goes shocked but then turns into a big smile "really?" I bush and nod "you're right, she messed up that shouldn't mean I can't do as I like when I'm single" she kisses me once more before telling me she'd be back and she was going to set up the date and to be ready by 8.