If They Only Knew About Us

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Perrie's POV

I'm laying on the couch with Jesy between my legs breastfeeding. We got home from the hospital three weeks ago. Jesy laid her head back looking up at me. "Baby" she pecked my jaw. I hummed in response not looking away from my game. "Perrie Louise" she growled at me. "What?" I snapped looking at her. "You know what nevermind" she got up and walked out of the room teary eyed. "Fuck" I mumble. I turned my game off getting up to go after her.

I walk upstairs into our daughters room to see her leaning over the crib. "I don't think your mama loves me anymore" She said shakily. My heart broke at her words. "Probably cause my tummy is still fat or maybe I just don't make her happy anymore" she sniffled. "We both love you though. Goodnight princess" she kissed Jayden's head. I quickly went out of the room so she didn't see me. She closed Jayden's door and as she turned around I pinned her against it. "Don't you ever and I mean fucking ever say I don't love you Jessica!" I growled in her face. I could see how scared she was. I released my grip and softly caressed her hips. "That shit is so untrue. You know I would do anything and everything for you. I love you so fucking much" I sobbed in her chest. "Jesy you're so fucking beautiful I don't understand how I am able to call you mine. I'm so lucky baby. You have the best personality ever. I love how you can be so cute and in the blink of an eye the sexiest woman in the whole entire world. You make me the happiest person in the world. Baby I've loved you since I first laid eyes on you. I fell I love with those cute freckles, these sexy curves, your full lips, your beautiful smile, your eyes, your long soft silky hair, the way you stare into my eyes when you're telling me about something you're passionate about. I love you the way you are. I don't ever want anybody else but you. You're my reason for being" I said staring into her eyes with tears falling down my cheeks. "Perrie" she sobbed out wrapping her arms around me. "I'm sorry baby I just... I'm just being needy and clingy cause if your attention isn't on the baby it's on that damn game and I just.. I want some attention from you. I'm so used to having your full attention and having you all for myself and now I fell like I don't have you at all and I don't feel loved or wanted" she cried out softly. "Jesy I'm so sorry I made you feel that way" I cried grabbing her hands. "I love you so damn much it hurts" I connected our lips. She tangled her fingers in my hair deeping the kiss. "I love you" I said pulling away. "I love you so much baby" I kissed her cheek. "So so so much Jesy" I kissed down her jaw line. "My beautiful wife" I tore her shirt down the middle causing her to gasp. "My babygirl" I unclipped her bra. "My perfect baba" I unbuttoned her jeans and took them off. "The love of my life" I pulled down her panties. "My sexy baby mama" I picked her up carrying her to our room. I laid her on the bed. I admired her body. "Fucking amazing body that I missed touching" I kissed her sweet spot. "Pezza" she moaned softly. "Yes my queen" I pulled away to look into her eyes. "I love you so much" she tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. "I want you to make love to me" she whispered connecting our lips.

Jesy's POV

Our bodies were tangled together. Our bare chests heaving up and down. Hair sprawled out on the pillows. Perrie's hand slowly and shyly making its way up my tummy to my breast. Something she'd always do after sex was caress my body, kiss and suck all over it. Her hand stopped under my breast teasingly. I grabbed her hand and placed it on my breast. She rubbed her thumb over my nipple and softly kissed at my neck. "Mine" she said greedily moving her hands to my hips while nipping and sucking at my collarbone. "Mmm what's yours baba?" I moaned out. "You" she said causing me to smile widely. "Yes I am" I moaned softly while lightly scratching up her back as she was sucking and nipping at my throat. "Jes" she moaned arching her back. I flipped us over so I was straddling her naked body and I softly rocked my hips on her. "Mm those abs are perfect" I moaned making my clit rub against her abs. "You're so sexy mama" she pulled me down into a soft passionate kiss. "Round three baba?" She massaged my bum while pressing firm kisses on my chin and jaw. I nodded eagerly. She pulled pulled me so I was hovering her face and she softly licked at my clit. "Mm fuck Pez" I moaned as she sucked on my clit. She licked at my entrance and softly ate me. As I was getting close to releasing myself I eagerly bucked my hips. "Harder baby" I moaned gripping her hair. With one final thrust I came and I softly rocked my hips riding my orgasm out. "Thank you baby" I smiled climbing off her. "Mhm" she said grabbing my thighs and rolling us over so I was on my back with her between my legs. "My baby" I cooed as she snuggled into me with her hands playing with my hair as she softly kissed my neck. "I love you so much Jes" she cooed in my ear. "I love you more baby" I pressed a kiss on her temple. I heard Jayden's cries through the baby monitor. I quickly got dressed and went to her room. "Hi baba" I cooed picking her up. "It's ok your mommys got you" I cooed and began breastfeeding sitting in the rocking chair in her room. She sucked hungrily while I softly rocked in the chair. Perrie walked into the room in a Calvin Klein sports bra and some matching sweats. "Mm stand up mommy" she said. I stood up and she sat in the chair pulling me on her lap. Her arms wrapping firmly around my waist and her head resting on my shoulder.

"Pezza wake up baby" I said softly. "I don't wanna" she whimpered in my ear her grip tightening on me. "Jay's asleep lets go to our bed baby" I cooed softly. She let go of me and I stood up. As I was bent over the crib pulling her blanket over her I felt a firm smack on my bum causing me to let out a soft moan. "Perrie!" I whisper yelled and smacked her arm. I pushed her out of the room closing her door behind us. "You couldn't of waited tell we were in our own room?" I asked and giggled at her blush. "I'm sorry it was just there and calling my name" she said softly climbing into bed. "Is that right?" I asked getting into bed next to her. "Mhm" she nodded scooting closer to me. "I love you baby goodnight" I pressed a kiss to her lips. She pulled me into her. I rested my head on her chest and my hand on her abs softly stroking them while she hummed in appreciation. One of her hands rested on my hip while the other played with my hair. "I love you more beautiful good night" she kissed my head.