it's just the way you look at me || minizerk || completed

two.

JJ looked up, startled, when he heard me and Simon open the door. He looked away suddenly, searching for something on his desk to throw at us.
'Fuck off! Doesn't anyone knock in this fucking house?!' he yelled. His voice cracked at the end, and we moved closer. JJ dropped his head and turned towards his desk. We tried to pry his head from his hands, but he groaned angrily at us.
'Jide, talk to us.' Simon said quietly. JJ didn't move.
'Should we get Vik?' Everyone in the Sidemen had seen how close JJ and Vik had gotten recently. They acted the same way in videos, but they spent most of their time together. They recorded together, and ate together. Even their sleeping patterns had aligned.
'No!' he shouted back at me. I looked into his eyes, and behind them, I saw... fear? He shook his head. 'Please.'
'JJ, tell us what's going on or we're going to talk to Vik.' I said firmly.
JJ sighed, and Simon looked over at me. Our eyes met, and I bit my lip.
'Something's wrong with him.' JJ said quietly.
'With Vik?' JJ nodded and his eyes filled with tears again.
'I don't know how to explain. That's why we've been spending so much time together. I noticed he was just bare sad all the time. I just thought I should try and look after him, but I hate seeing him like this.'
'What do you mean, sad?' I asked, although I think me and Simon both knew what JJ meant.
'I think he's depressed. Well, I know he is, he told me.'
Simon dropped his head. I felt my throat close slightly as I processed what JJ was saying.
'How come we never noticed?' Simon asked. He sounded so lost, so confused. I just wanted to hide him, to protect him from whatever was going on. No homo.
'He's been keeping it secret for like a year now. I'm the only one who knows.'
'Yeah but, no offence JJ, why you?'
'I... I walked in on him.' JJ squeezed his eyes shut, his hands shaking in a ball on his lap.
'What?' Simon asked.
'He was... He was crying. He wouldn't stop crying.'
I breathed in sharply as Simon fell to his knees. All I wanted was to be close to him again. I let the tears come as I thought of Vik, alone in his room, with no one but JJ to talk to.
I looked up at JJ, and pulled him up into a hug.
'Neither of you are alone anymore. We're going to fix this.' I mumbled into his shoulder. He nodded, and I stepped back.
'We need to talk to Vik.'

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