finding you in my memory !

chapter 4

Cara and I , we  were going to the tattoo shop breaking our parents rules , we arrived there the tattoo man drew a "BLACK BROKEN HEART " on her neck and the other half was on mine , we where happy,  a black shadow came over and end up everything. i woke up that day scared of it , i dont know what to say if its a nightmare or a good dream . i went downstairs , my mom was making the breakfast , i was still mad of them and waiting for an answer , my mom starts to cry  everytime she looks at me as im gonna die soon . i went outside waiting for the bus to come,  i saw Cara coming down from her house looking left and right like she was stealing something , she entered to a car with a guy and she looked back and looked at me , the bus came . its the first period she was there drawing and kept on writing memories all over the page , i was worried about her and i was sure 100 percent that she is the one who wrote that note for me , i kept  looking at her hand writing and my guesses  were  right she was the one who wrote that note . its lunch time my friends and I  where sitting together i didnt wait to tell them at the garden about everything so i decided to tell them at that moment  .

"guys , i cant wait to tell in the garden so i have to tell you everything things are getting worse " i said looking left and right scared of someone to hear me .

"okay tell us what is happening is their any problem" matt said looking at my eyes .

"yes , tell us " mike said holding his phone .

"no, not here its not safe , lets go outside lets go to a place that no one could  hear what im gonna tell you guys its so important " i said nervously .

"so let us go the to the gym" mike said .

"no we cant go to the gym there are  cameras and we dont want anybody to see us . lets escape and go to somewhere safe , away from people we know . what do you say Jacob?!?" matt said whispering .

"yes i think that we have to go out of here cause i cant keep it till noon , lets go guys "i said looking at Cara .

" we have to plan how to go out of here " mike said .

"yes , he is right we have to plan for a way to escape before we go " matt said .

"okay guys you're right , so here you go our plan i will go and open the fire bell alarm then while everybody are going outside of the school , both of you will wait for me outside in the exit door . now if anything happened and our plan went  wrong then we have to make a plan "B" can you guess of what im thinking about ?!?" i said imagining  the moments .

"i agree about the fire bell but im scared of what you're thinking of ,  we will not make plan "B" i wont do it " mike said looking at me .

me too i agree about plan "A" but can you please explain what do you mean by plan "B"im scared of that look , Jacob! "matt said nervously .

"we will jump out of the school same as the thief and we will run so fast you know what i mean "i said and smiling .

"im scared but okay i dont mind im 17 and i have to do this " mike said .

"me too im in to help you brother , lets do this " matt said excitedly .

we all three were scared and excited to do it so we did plan "A" i went downstairs mike and matt where at the exit waiting for me , i opened it and ran away like i stole something so i was running till i reached the exit door we all ran away and oh yes my plan worked we were outside the school we went to the garden it was far away but we reached it  .

"so Jacob we are away from the school so tell us what is happening what is wrong?!?" mike said breathing too fast .

"I want to ask you guys a question " i said .

"Wait,wait ,wait  you brought  us here to ask us a question?! Just ask and let us get out of here " Mike said angrily .

"what do you know about Cara Smith ?!?" i said

they both looked at me .

"everything about her  and about her family?!  , I dont why everytime i ask this question , people start looking  at me , whats the problem about this question?!?" i said and my tears about to come down .

"i really dont know anything about her all i know is that she is always lonely and always in a dark mood she never smiles or talks to anyone " matt said nervously.

"what about you mike ??!" i said angrily .

"umm..... me too i dont know anything about her " mike said and he is about to cry .

i went to the corner and started to cry .

"every time i ask people about her they start to lie at me or give me that look and they become nervous and scared and some of them starts to cry , i dont remember anything i dont remember my childhood i just keep on dreaming of things so dark cars accidents and black broken hearts all over the same heart which i have on my neck and her neck , but no aim of those dreams , she is in my mind till the end of my life i want to know what happened why i keep on dreaming about her why she is the only one " i said crying .

"im sorry Jacob if i can help you then i will , but i cant " mike said .

"Jacob all what i can say is memories are  all what you need " matt said and his hand on my shoulder .

" thanks guys , now i think i have to go " i said and my tears are going to fall  .

i took my bag and i got  out of the garden and on my way to go home i was remembering i was crying and thinking of what people keep on telling me and about her . i arrived to my house i opened the door my eyes was full of tears my mom looked at me and kept  on asking me "what is wrong with you " but i did what they always  do with me , then she asked if it was abut Cara smith i looked at her and went to my room full of tears and thoughts and dreams i laied on the bed holding the paper and keep staring at it and wondering that the three different people said to me the  same sentence  . i went to take a shower and while i was taking it i decided to go and tell her everything and let her give me an answer . i get out of the bathroom , dressed up well , i opened the door and went downstairs without asking mom without saying anything i went out directly to her house i knocked the door she opened the door i told her everything and i asked her ,

"im sorry to ask this question but where are  your parents why are you so mad , i never saw you smiling or laughing or talking , i.... i really love you everytime i see you i feel like i know you from a long time,  please let me know anything let me hear or see anything ." i said and my tears droped down .

as usual nothing happened she closed the door,  i sat down beside the door waiting for an answer waiting for something anything ,  i was disappointed of all these people who gave the same answer best friends , family and everybody . after a few hours she opened the door and threw a paper written on it ,

"im sorry to act like that but i have to do all what im doing , as i always say MEMORIES ALL WHAT YOU NEED from Cara Smith {sad face } " Cara wrote.

i went to the house it was 10:00 my mom was asking me but i was having that feeling that I don't want to  talk to anyone, i went directly to my room thinking of all what people told me and what she wrote i laied and i was crying , because everybody seem that they know something  about  me and they are not telling me i kept on thinking and crying till i fall asleep .