finding you in my memory !

chapter 1

Her green eyes , her dark brown hair , her white skin , her black outfit , . Cara Smith , my neighbor , my classmate , i can't listen or look at anybody else except her . When i look at her i forget everything around me . It seems that I knew  her before  but I don't know anything about her now  . I can't know if she is a part of my life now or she was one of my memories  in the past . I am in conflict with myself trying to know her .
But the biggest problem is that she never talks to anyone and that's makes it harder for me.

"Jacob , Jacob, Jacob Nelson , are you with me ? " my teacher asked me, everybody looked at me .

"yes, im with you miss" i said .

"then tell me what is our lesson
today ? " the teacher said .

" actually sir ........." i said nervously.

"okay go to my office and wait for me there " the teacher said angrily.

I went to his office and i waited till the bell rang , everybody were outside opening thier lockers to take out their books . The teacher came and he keep stairing at me like i did something wrong or i killed someone .

"so Jacob , you dont think that its the time to tell me everything about what is wrong with you these days! " he said calmly .

i didn't know what to answer or what to say i was thinking of a lie as every time i do. I didn't answer yet and he kept looking at me and about to come and slap me on the face .

"so any answer Jacob Nelson , um sorry any lies ?" he said near my left ear .

i still didn't answer or give him any expression just standing like im not in the room and keep looking at his pictures in his office.

"Jacob, you can go out of here  now i will talk to your parents to solve this problem " he said .

i went out of his office , its lunch time i went to the school cafeteria , i still think about Cara i was thinking like why the hell im in love with  a girl i don't know anything about her or what she is doing or listen to her voice she never talks or says anything . I took my food and sat beside my best friend Matthew Jackson i usually call him Matt . I was looking at her , she was alone nobody likes to sit beside her .

"so you still think about her ? man look around you there is a lot of girls , like why she is the only one  who is in your mind " he said and his mouth full of cheese macaroni .

"i dont know man she is like an angle coming from the sky. Just look at her she is different . She doesnt look like the others "i said .

he laughed and kept on telling me about each  girl in the school . Then mike came he is my friend too , me and him and Matt we were always together .

"hey guys whats up, hey Jacob i remembered today in my bio class that you told me two days ago that your parents are travelling on Friday right ?" mike said happily and shaking his hands .

yes, they are but why you are asking me ?"i said .

"really , is that a question , okay here you go i will tell you on Friday your parents will travel so on Saturday we will make a huge party specially your house man its big enough to make BBQ party so what do you think?!" he said Enthusiastically.

umm i really don't know i don't like to break my mother's rules dude , but don't worry i will think about it ." i said worried expression on my face.

"so tell me tomorrow morning because i need time to tell the others " he said .

"okay guys i'm late for my next class so i have to go , bye " i said .

"okay take care of your self and don't forget to focus in your lesson and think about the party " Matt said looking at Cara.

i went to the class i saw her  sitting on my place and reading a book and her hair beside her green eye . In that moment i just wanted to go and tell her that this is my place so i just want to go and talk to her so i went to her place which is my place actually.

"excuse me , i'm sorry to disturb you but i think that you 're sitting on my place " i said nervously shaking my hands.

she didnt answer she looked at me like i did something to her . she looks like she is worried and nervous when i talked to her . she got  up and sat behind me i was happy that finally i had that opportunity to talk to her . the teacher came in and he started to explain about today's new lesson and here you go another boring class .

the class finished it was the last period now everybody is out of the classes and they started to run like it is the last day of school . i was standing outside the school waiting for Matt and Mike to come probably i was waiting for Cara . my boys came we all walked out to go to our houses as we do everyday while we were  walking i was thinking of making a party and invite Cara i was wondering if she will come or not  .

"so Mike i was thinking about the party i think i really need to make a party so tell everybody to come to my house tomorrow night at 8:30 pm " i said but worried of breaking the rules .

"thats what i wanted to hear brother " they said excitedly .

"so we will meet at the garden to plan for everything " Matt said .

"yes we,don't mind " me and Mike said .

i came back home i was tired i saw my mom cooking the dinner i kissed her on the  checks , i went to my room i sat down on my chair and my hands on my neck and listened  to my favorite song "stitches by Shawn Mendes" and kept on thinking about a lot of things .

its 6:40 pm its dinner time my mom called me , i went down and sat on the chair with my little cute sister .

"so how is the school honey " my mom asked .

"good " i looked at her .

"will thats good but your teacher today called me and he told me that you dont focus in your lesson and when he asked you , you didn't  answer . What is wrong with you , you never did that before so why now ? Jacob " she said angrily .

I looked at my dad and my little sister and i get up and i didn't answer or did anything i just washed my hands and went to my room i took my phone and my jacket and i went to the garden where i should meet with my friends my heart beat started to beat so fast like i was running for a long time . then i saw Cara running and  her headphones on and her hair was flying from the wind . she looked at me and smiled i smiled too but in that moment i didn't know what to do . They came and holding a punch of papers full of numbers and names . Matt told me to hold some of the papers and  to call all the numbers and tell them about the party . i started to call one by one we all finished after a few hours we planned of what we will buy for the party.

"i actually think that its time to tell you guys about Cara " i said very quickly .

"oh here you go Jacob , tell us we are listening " Mike said looking at the girls pictures

" okay , a few days ago i was in my room i dreamed about her , i dreamed of a car accident happened to me and she saved me from death, that's why i keep thinking about her and can't think about anything else , and today she was running my heart beat started to move so much , guys really i need your help" I said .

"its okay man sometimes it happens its just a dream and after a few days you will forget about it trust me " Matt said putting his hand on my left shoulder .

i went back home my mom was packing her things to travel and my dad too my little sister was sleeping and i went to apology to my mom about what i did .

"listen honey i dont do all these things because i hate you i do all that because i love you and not for me its for you for your future you're all what i have now " she said and she was about to cry and her hand on my checks .

"and now i want you to take care of the house and for everything we will come back next Friday i want to come back and see the house clean is that a deal ?" she said and she was opening the door .

" we are late honey we have to go " my dad said to mom .

" dont worry mom everything will be okay , take care of yourselves " i said shaking my hands for the goodbye .

its 11 pm alone With this  big house in the living room I was watching a movie and I was thinking of her and about the dream at the same time  . Its 12:50 midnight i got  up to my room and i fall a sleep .