The Last Pages of my Memory

Until the Last Page

And I didn't know that that was the last time we'll say goodbye to each other.

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Months have passed, and all the senior students were busy. It was the third week of March, and everyone are gathered on the hall to practice for our graduation.

I was elected as the batch valedictiorian.

Of course, I was happy. But what made me feel the opposite was because of Jake.

Eversince that day na pumunta siya sa bahay, naging busy na kami pareho.

Siya sa varsity, habang ako eh sa studies.

Ewan ko ba. Parang, I felt distant from him.

Bihira na rin lang kaming magkaroon ng usual na usapan. Nagkakasama pa rin kami pero magkaiba ang focus namin.

And I felt bad about myself. Feeling ko, kasalanan ko na rin naman yun.

"Okay, everyone. places. Let's have a final round of our practice. Dismissal after. Okay?" I nodded as I was sitted at the first row. I looked around to see if Jake was around but I was surprised when I there was no sign of him.

I raised my hand and tried to catch my our proctor's attention.

"Excuse me. Can I just go to the bathroom for a while?" Paalam ko. She nodded and continued with what she was doing.

I walked away from the hall and searched for Jake.

I know he was still at school. We're classmates remember?

I tried to look at the quadrangle, the playground, even at the canteen, wala siya.

I decided to go to our classroom. Baka sakaling makita ko siya doon.

As I finally reached the corridor, parang biglang bumigat ang pakiramdam ko. I don't know why.

I was about to open the door when I heard a sound. Parang may mga tao sa loob, nag-uusap.

"You think it will work?" sabi nang boses lalaki, and parang kay Jake yun. I leaned closely at the door to further hear the conversation.

"Of course. Ako pa. tara na. Baka maghinala na ang girlfriend mo. Ba't pa kasi siya pa? Andito naman ako?" My eyes grew big as I heard a girl's voice from inside.

Is he,

No. He can't be.

I heard him chuckle and said a few words, enough to break my whole heart.

"I don't know. Well, whatever. I just used her."

I stood frozen and I didn't notice that the door widely opened and two people were standing in front of me.

Confirmed. It was Jake, with some random girl I didn't know.

"Gen-"

*SLAAP*

"GO.TO.HELL.YOU.BASTARD!" tears were streaming down my face. 

I can't help it. It breaks my heart.

The guy. The guy I loved for almost 2 years broke my heart.

"Gen, let me expl-"

"EXPLAIN YOUR BULLS*IT. GO TO HELL WITH YOUR FREAKIN' FLING. I DON'T NEED YOU! I DON'T NEED SOMEONE AS AWFUL AS YOU. RIGHT NOW, I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU. I HATE MYSELF FOR BELIEVING YOU!" I covered my face with my palms.

Crocodile tears. I felt the pain on my chest.

I  walked past them and hurriedly grabbed my things and went out of the door. I can feel that he was following me.