*Trigger Warning ********
Jacob's POV:
-I just sent *girls get on my nerves * to the group to Ari .-
Okay . I know I was a little harsh . But right now I'm going through a rough time. And no one understands. All the hate I've been going through. I'm tired of all these girls commenting "Go die" "Drink Bleach" it hurts. I feel sometimes as if my walls are tumbling down. But when I meet a supporter it just makes my day . And I forget about the haters. But there's always that one who makes things worse. I'm not sure I can handle any of this much longer. Everyday something goes wrong . I'll post a musical.ly and I'll get hate for thinking I'm some hot stuff. But in reality. I think I'm this ugly monster. That no one cares for. Everyone hates me. And now everyone in the group hates me. But most importantly Ari. She hates me. And I really do like her.
I just screw everything up. Nothing I do is right. My world as I know is over....
I get a text from Zach.
From- BroitsZach🤓: man what's wrong ??
Read at 3:34 pm
I don't reply. I just shut my phone off and laid in my bed looking up at the ceiling fan. Thinking . If I ended it . Would it be okay? Would anyone care? Later on another ding goes off from my phone .
From- BroitsZach🤓: helloooo! I'm not mad! Just talk to me?...
Read at 4:47 pm
I just read that one too. I threw my phone at the wall. I started to bite my nails. I stood up from the bed and started to pace back and fourth. My phone dings again . I don't even bother looking . Making up mind. I ran to the bathroom and search the drawers for my razors. I haven't done it in a long time . I tried to stay strong and stop cutting but it's been too long. Another ding . I ignore it once again. And I keep on looking for my razor. Then boom I see it. I stare right at it . The longer I stare the more I think is it worth it? I start to cry I slid down the wall. I'm insane. I thought. I'm going crazy .
I start to cry more and more just when I was about to do it . I hear Zach scream my name barging through my bedroom door. Looking for me . He then spots me and sees the tears and the razor. No one knew before that I cut. Not even my mom . But now Zach knows. He's the only one.
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Zach's POV:
I barge through Jacobs bedroom. But he's not in here. Then I hear crying from the bathroom. I rush in to see Jacob with tears in his eyes . And a razor in his hand . "Jacob I uhh " I stuttered. Tears were forming my eyes as well. "Why man" I questioned sitting beside him. "I'm so sorry it's just the hate it's getting to me " he cried into my shoulder. I patted his back. "Look Jacob there's another way you don't have to do this "
He looks at me and sighs. " I know I know" he got up and threw the razors in the trash . I smiled up at him. "Now clean up we're going to see Ari so you can apologize " he smiled and nodded. "Okay " he said. "I'll be downstairs waiting " "k"!
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(I'm gonna continue to do shoutouts but in every other chapter)
S/O to JayceeRowland22
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قصص الهواةThis includes ||| BruhitsZach , Blake Gray, Hunter and Brandon Rowland, Jacob Sartorius, Weston Koury, Joey Birlem, Mark Thomas, Caitlynn, Madison, Mario S, Ari, Aisha , Jaycee , Cat Selman As more Characters are added on . I'll update .
