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#12: Stay - Rihanna

Calum: "Ohhh the reason I hold on, ohhh cause I need this hole gone"

It's been about three weeks since you and Calum broke up. You thought that you two were gonna sort this out, like after every fight you've had. But no, this time, he really meant it. He was tired of constantly bickering with you, and you two almost never saw eye to eye anymore. He didn't want to keep this up, so he just walked away and didn't look back. He told you via text that he was too full of me right now, and he wanted to break up. You didn't want to lose him, so you did everything to try to contact him. But he doesn't answer his calls, texts, and he's almost never around his house when you visited. You know pretty well that when Calum makes up his mind, there is no way of ever changing his mind again. You knew that you should try to move on, because it was clear that he wasn't gonna come crawling back to you anymore. But you just couldn't let go of him - Calum was the only person who understood you. He was the missing piece of your puzzle, and without him, you would just feel lost. You kept trying to hold on to someone who didn't want to be held onto, and that's what makes it so hard for you. You kept trying to hold on because you needed him. Without him, there's almost like the hole in your chest and he was the only one who could fix that hole up. You needed him like the sunshine, like the air around you, you were nothing without him. You didn't want him back, you needed him. You mustered up courage to send him a text saying, "Meet me in the park in twenty minutes. We need to talk, I promise I won't ever bother you again if you meet me." You knew how much you needed him, but if he really didn't have any feelings for you anymore, you won't force him. You would try to live life without him, no matter how dull, no matter how lifeless, no matter how hard it may be. And there he was, sitting on the park bench with his head in his hands. He was wearing a beanie today, you wanted to pull it off his head to mess his hair up, but you weren't in any position to do that anymore. You silently sat down next to him, and you two just sat there for a full ten minutes, as you tried to think of how to say it to him. "Look, I'm keeping my promise. After this, I won't ever bother you again." You glanced at him from the corner of your eye. You noticed his Adam's apple bob up and down, indicating that he swallowed, and he finally said, "That's the thing. I don't think I can last without you by my side anymore, Y/N. I only did this to see if you still love me, because you haven't been showing it a lot lately. Now that I see how much you still do," he looks at me with teary eyes. "Do you still want me back?" You pulled him by the shirt, pressing your lips against his soft ones, and you could feel him kiss back a second later. You pulled away slowly, and smiled, "I don't want you back, I need you back." You two sat there, embracing each other until the sun set, and neither of you cared if people would give you these strange looks. All that matters is thatyou two are together again.

Luke: "Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving"

"Hey, Luke, it's Y/N. I know this is like the fiftieth time this week I've called, but I really need to talk to you. Please," you breathed the last part out as hung up. You've had another fight with him again over the stupidest things, he's convinced that you have been cheating on him behind his back because of some rumors someone started about you on Twitter. You knew better, and of course, these rumors are false and you have been faithful to Luke all this time. You didn't even know why he wasn't listening to you, and instead, listened to all those lies being spread online. It killed you to know that he didn't trust you enough to believe your story, even if he knew very well that there was no proof of you cheating on him at all. You've been seeing his tweets, and they're all pretty deep and depressing. All of them have one thing in common though: they all say that he's hurt. He's hurting inside, but what he didn't know is that your pain was more than twice his. He was only hurt because he hurt himself - he believed in those lies, instead of believing his own girlfriend. You were hurt because your boyfriend didn't trust you enough, you were hurt because he chose to believe those false statements, you're hurt because he was leaving you all alone in your time of need, you're hurt because he's hurting. Yes, he was being broken bit by bit, but you were the one who needed saving here. You needed someone to save you from the tears, and the only person who could do that was the exact same person who was the cause of these tears in the first place. You dialled his number once more, and once you heard the cue to speak, you just whispered, "Luke... please, I need you." before hanging up, crying silent tears into your pillow. About ten minutes later, you heard the banging of the front door. Your eyes shot open and you felt warm arms pull you into an embrace. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry," he kept saying over and over. You felt hot tears on your skin, and you let your own fall into the pillow. "I'm sorry, Y/N. Please stop crying, it kills me to see you like this. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," He says, pulling you in tighter. The two of you just laid there on your bed, crying as he hugged you from behind. Once both of you had calmed down, you turned to him and kissed his nose, "Thank you for coming back for me," he nodded and gave you a smile. "I'm sorry, Y/N. I just don't want to lose you and I-" "You don't need to explain, I just need you here with me. Since you're here right now, I'm happy and that's all I need. I love you," you say as you wrapped your arms around him, breathing in his familiar smell before you dozed off.

WELL THIS WAS SHIT IM SORRY