The Loss of A Best Friend

Bittersweet Friendship

I think I am happy.

But am I?

I think that I have found a new best friend,

But did I?

I think my heart is healed,

From the times spent with you.

But has it?

I think that I am complete,

With a new best friend ,

To be by my side, always.

But am I?

I think that I am perfectly at ease,

With no more heat aches when I pass you in the hall.

But is that true?

Am I lying to myself,

Convincing myself that I am fine,

That I am over you completely?

But can I survive without doing so?

Can I bring myself to tell anyone,

About these questions in my head?

Or will I sit here,

Steaming,

Stewing?

Writing all my thoughts on Wattpad,

Hoping someone will understand.