Mend My Broken Heart ©. (Boyxboy) (Mpreg)(LBGT)

Chapter 1

Ryder:::::::::::::::( :

I find myself sitting on the patio staring out at the ocean and remembering my family, friends and even my enemies. I could only leave one letter addressed to everyone and now I think of all the things I would love to say.

When I was fifteen I realized I was going to end up with a male for a mate. My mom cries my dad laughed and both my brothers were pissed. I was scared. I thought my family would hate me and I thought I would lose my friends.

Hayden and Payton didn't have anything against me being mated to a male they were made because people tend to frown at male on male relationships more then female on female relationships. My mom cried because she was hoping to have three daughter in laws. Dad won a bet with Alpha Glenn. I love that guy. To think he would have been my father in law.

I have been here for almost a month. And I have been sicker then I have ever been in my life. I have an appointment next week with the doctor. I have almost finished school too. All I do is work on schooling and sleep. The pain isn't as bad but I think it's because I'm to numb to feel it.

When I was in the 3rd grade
I thought that I was gay
Cause I could draw, my uncle was ....."hello"

"Ryder....?" the voice said.

"Who is this?" I asked.

"Come home." the voice said.

"I am home." I said in a sad voice.

"No..... because of .........." the line went dead.

The person sounded sad. But I didn't care. I yawned and got up deciding it was time for a nap. I just didn't feel like being up anymore.

I woke up to a know on the door. I didn't want to get up and answer it but because it could be important I did.


"Are you Ryder Montgomery?" the delivery guy asked.

"Yes." I said.

"Could you sign here?" he asked. Handing me a electronic signature thing.

"What is this for?" I asked.

"I have a package for you." he said handing me a big package.

"Thank you." I said taking the package.

I carried the package on to the living room and opened it. Inside was letter from my mom. And so of my favorite food, a blanket and some pictures. I was bawling by time I opened the letter.

Ry,

Baby boy, I am so mad right now I could spit nails. I understand why you left and I get that your depressed but have you ever heard of a phone? Your phone number might have changes but mine hasn't. Thankfully you have been using your accounts and your momma is smarter then most detectives. I am coming to see my baby. Get ready. I'm bringing your brothers with me so I hope there is room for meat heads. I love you my Ry guy. See you soon. Love mommy.

Shit, shit, shit. my mom was coming here. I had to clean, shop and clean. I sure as hell didn't have the energy for this. But I missed my mommy and my big bubs.

I started cleaning the rooms I knew mom would have a fit if the wasn't clean first. Kitchen, bathroom and living room. Once they were clean I took a break and went shopping. I filled the house with all my favorites and even some of my brothers favorites. Then I went back to cleaning. Fresh sheets on the beds, towels on the bathrooms and everything vacuumed and dusted. I cleaned half the night.

The next day I felt worse then I had in since I had gotten here but mom and my brothers coming I had to get moving. I finish cleaning the inside of the house and made my way outside. I mowed my little grass cleaned windows and swept the patio. I decided the house looked bland. So I went and got some plants, candles and some frames to hang my family pictures in.

It had been a really long day for me by noon so I stop and took a nap. When I woke I had missed a call on my phone and who ever it was was calling from the number that called me the day before. And they left a voice mail.

"Ryder baby, you can come home. I'm sorry. I promise to be better."

The voice was sad and sent shivers down my spine. I don't know who it is. Not a clue. And the only one with my new number is Alpha Simon unless who ever it is tracked me down like my mom did. I decided to save the message and get up. I was to pooped to do much so I ordered pizza and day out on the patio.

I had this one friend back home he was another one that would end up with a male mate. We kind of bonded over that. He's name is Davey. He is so funny. He found his mate about a month ago. They hit it off from the beginning and Davey was a different person. He floated never stopped smiling and always had love in his eyes. I wanted to be him so bad. I prayed that I could have half his happiness when I found my mate.

"Dude don't you think you have had enough pizza for a month?" Paul the pizza guy asked coming onto the patio. He was from this pack so he assumes that I like to talk but I don't and so I just shrug my shoulders for now.

"My you can keep the change." I said handing him a twenty.

"Still not being to vocal huh?" he said taking the money and leaving.

I didn't taste my pizza nor did it help me feel any better. But I ate and I'm not starving myself. I have actually gained weight since I've been here. I look like a ghost that ate a small watermelon. I blame the change in my life. It's not just one thing it's everything. I uses to hang out with Jesse my BFFAA everyday. He and I would train, run and have movie nights every week. I miss him. I miss doing all of that. I don't feel comfortable going for a run here my wolf is in deep depression I don't know if he'll ever recover. I wonder if Jesse found his mate? his birthday was a couple days after I left. I left his gift on my bed I hope he liked it.

I just realized that Jesse was a couple days younger then HIM. I met HIM when I was little if course but we never hung in the same crowds. He was more like my brothers friends and I am a nerdy gay boy with only two friends. I had never really paid that much attention to HIM before and now I look back at THAT night and I ask myself why did I do it, why did I give myself to him so easy? I knew he was my mate the second he touched me. I felt electrified like I could light up a thousand Christmas trees and there homes. It was the best feeling in the world. Have you ever craved something in your life so much you hate it. You hate everything about it because you know you'll never have it? I know that feeling. Even though I hate HIM I still want HIM. Even though he rejected me I still want him. My wolf is broken and I don't know how to fix him.

I decided on a swim the water looked calm today so it would be a good day for it. I love swimming Jesse and I could always be found at the beach in the summer. I think maybe that is what had drawn me to this place. It was my favorite part of California.

The water was a little cold but it felt good to me. I was a tad bit embarrassed because of my beer belly. I don't even drink I think any alcohol is gross. Once I was in the water I was good. It felt like the water soothed my body. I think it's a comfort thing. I swam for a couple hours before heading in. I figured my mommy would be showing up soon she like to give you enough warning but it's usually just enough.

After a long hot relaxing bath a bowl if ice cream and a glass of milk I headed to my room. When I got there I sighed. My California King bed was just too big for just me. It was things like this that would send me into a downward spiral. You would think that a one night stand wouldn't have this effect on you. But it does a werewolf who has been rejected by their mate. You could meet them and have them reject minutes later and the pain inflicted is the same. I don't know if what HE did was better or worse for me. I think I would have been okay with not knowing. I think that would have been so much better.

A/N: okay so chapter one is boring and short but please have faith it will get better and as far as the short chapters go I'm writing from my phone so I really don't know how long they are if anyone knows a good way to figure it out PLEASE let me know. I thought my last story had long chapters in it and it didn't.