Please Don't Go -Phan-

9

-Phil-

I woke up to Carly gone. Probably because now it's Monday. I sighed and sat up slowly since I didn't want to accidentally open a cut.

I went to the bathroom and changed all of the bandages then I went into my room and put on my normal black jeans and a sweater.

I brushed my teeth then fixed my hair. I put on my shoes, grabbed my phone and bag then rushed out of the house.

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I finally got to the school gates and I stopped to breath for a second. I looked around and I saw Carly next to her girlfriend Lizzie.

I walked over to them and they both smiled. "Hey Philly." Lizzie smiles at me. "Hi Liz." I reply. The bell rang about 5 minutes after.

"Okay I'll see you later babe." Lizzie said and pecked Carly on the lips before running away to class.

"How are you... Yanno." Carly asks as we walk to class.

They hurt like fucking hell.

"They're fine." I lie. She smiles and kisses my cheek. We walk into the class and sit in our seats.

Her next to this random boy and me at the front of the class closest to the door since I have so many panic attacks I'm able to just walk out.

About 5 minutes into the class I couldn't breath. The walls felt like they were closing in on me and I felt like someone was punching me in the chest.

I stood and grabbed my bag, rushing out of the room and down the halls. "Phil?" I heard a voice call me. Dan. "Phil are you okay?"

"Uh yeah uh I have to go." I stutter and rush out of the school. I practically run to my tree even though my legs were screaming for me not to.

I fell next to the tree and tried to catch my breath but nothing worked. The only way I can stop this is by hurting myself. Luckily I always bring a blade with me.

I reach into my bag and find the blade at the bottom. I set it next to me then pull off my sweater. I take the bandages off my left arm then bring the blade to my already bloody arm, since the other cuts opened.

I went over the ones from yesterday and created new ones in the places I missed. There was blood all over the grass around me which caused me to smile.

It felt so good. I need more. I create a few more gashes on my arm and then I feel satisfied. I wrap the bandage around my arm and the bandage covers in blood after it being on for a few seconds. Oh well.

I throw the blade back into my bag and put my sweater back on. I stand up slowly and throw my bag over my shoulder then begin my way back to the school.

I wait for the next class then I go in. This is the class with Dan, Great... I sit in my usual seat all the way in the back then bring out my note book which is full of small, lame doodles.

"Phil..." I hear a voice next to me. I jumped and turned to see who it was. Dan. "Are you okay?"

I nod and he smiles before standing up and going to sit with his friends which are the actual cool people in our school.

The class fly's by and I'm already rushing out and to the next class which is art. My favorite.

I sit at the table and wait for the teacher to enter. "Okay guys today you get to draw whatever you want." Mr. Hood speaks then sits at his desk.

I decide to draw Dan. I'm not sure why but I want to. It may sound creepy but I don't care.

I finish the drawing and I sit quietly so the teacher can grade it. Mr. Hood goes around and grade everyone's, mine last since I'm in the back of the room.

"Very good Mr. Lester." He smiles at me. I nod as a thanks and he writes in his book. "A."

I smile and put it in my bag. When the class ends it's finally lunch time. I get into the cafeteria and sit at my normal table. I'm usually alone.

"Hi." Carly says as she sits next to me with a big smile on her face. Lizzie soon comes and sits next to her. They share a quick kiss and then I mumble a hi.

"Hey Dan get your ass over here!" Lizzie yells to Dan who is a few tables away. He smiles at her then me and comes and sits next to me.

I'm still silent. I nod to him then pull out my ear buds then put them in my phone. Fall out boy begins playing then I put them in my ears.

I feel Dan shuffle close to me then he grabs one out of my ear and puts it in his. I smile and take it back so I can give him the left one since that's the side he's on.

I put the right in my right year and we listen to Dance, Dance. "You have a good taste in music." Dan smiles.

"Thanks." I stutter and look down at my fingers. I can hear him humming the song. I look up to see Carly and Lizzie smiling weirdly at us. "What?"

"Nothing." They both say in sync. I furrow my eyebrows and look back down at my hands. Without thinking I grab Dan's hand and begin playing with his fingers.

He watches me and I wiggle his fingers weirdly. "Sorry is this weird?" I drop his hand.

He smiles and shakes his head, "No it's fine." He puts his hand on mine and I got back with wiggling his fingers, causing him to laugh.

He's so adorable!

Awe they're cute aodhshhhsdj I'm dead lolz

Qotc: have any of you met your internet friend before?

Aotd: no but I'm going to soon (tomorrow) phan_muke

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