A girl with a broken heart and high hopes.

She disappeared.

I saw her again. the only thing I did was looking at her.
She was far from me. I wanted to talk to her anyway.
She was walking slowly.
I went near to her and wanted to start a conversation.

I looked at her in the eyes.
Her eyes were so beautiful I couldn't take my eyes off of her.
She looked at me.
Her eyes told me mysterious stories.

At that time, I didn't want to waste my time not talking to her.
I started to ask her some questions because she didn't seem to say a word.
She was uncomfortable with talking.
All she did was putting a gorgeous and a broken smile on her face.
We talked a little bit.

She was so shy.
She started breathing fast.
She was cold, her hands seemed to be so cold.

"You look sad" I said.
She smiled softly.

She looked around.
I knew she wanted to go.
I don't blame her because we didn't even know each other and of course she wouldn't be comfortable talking to a stranger.

I wanted to ask her to stay but I didn't want to bother her.

"Can we meet again?" I asked.
"Don't be surprised if I disappear." She said.

I felt bad about the answer.

I don't know what made me be so curious about her thoughts. That was strange for me. I didn't want her to go. I wanted to understand her. I wanted to understand her story.

"tell me a little bit about yourself" I asked.
She answered me politely and told me a bit about herself.

She told me some things that I'd never answer the same if someone asked me to talk about myself.

The way she talked made me calm. I didn't even want to hear anything only her voice and the way she talked.

She was so calm and shy. Her voice was so low. She didn't say much.
I felt like she wanted to say a lot but didn't.

Despite, she was writing. I wanted to read her writings and I was curious to know what they were about.
I wanted to ask her about it.
And the things that she was thinking about. But I was afraid if I bother her.

I wanted to understand her but it seemed like she didn't want me to.

Then suddenly we stopped talking and I knew she wanted to leave without even saying goodbye.

I was afraid of not seeing her again.
She started to walk slowly. And then she disappeared again..

Gosh! She was so beautiful, yet so sad.
Whenever I asked her about something she thought about the answer deeply, then answering it.
I felt like she was broken. Maybe it was because she once loved someone too much.

And in spite of everything, I could see the sadness in her eyes even though she woke up every morning with hope showing on her face.

May/2016