As much as I cry, no one sees my tears...
As much as I am scared of pain, no one sees my fears.
As much as I want to leave, no one is holding me here...
I stay because loneliness is a thing that I fear.
I stay because "no one else will want me" is the thing that I hear...
And I believe it...
I am washed up and unwanted.
As much as I struggle, no one knows of my troubles...
Not a soul knows about my struggle.
As much as I yearn for your acceptance...
I am more than grateful for each lesson.
I thank the stars above for my every blessing...
That you gave to me
It is those same very stars that I put my faith in.
As much as I want to breakdown...
I know I should not throw my towel to the ground.
I keep on, quietly, without a sound...
As much as I scream and cry in the inside,
I seriously want to release this agony out loud.
But my mind won't let me...
I don't want to be looked at differently.
I don't want to be judged...
As much as I held back saying this
all I need is your love.
I am just desperate for your attention...
I am in need of your time and affection.
I am tired of the heartache
scars from depression.
Non-stop praying for a new beginning.
How much longer do I have to keep praying?
As much as I want this to work...
I have grown to realize my worth.
You are no longer worth my time.
© Nikey Pasco-Dunston 2016
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Writings On My Wall
Poetry'Writings On My Wall' is a poetic collection of Nikey's innermost deepest thoughts. Read and fall in love with her feelings on love, sex, happiness, pain, success, failure and more. As Nikey brings the art of storytelling to life through her poetry...