The fresh water washes against my skin, my body numb from the cold water and I just let myself float. My skin turns a pale shade of purple and the cool tones fade into the blue of my lips. It doesn't bother me, I love it, It means that I can feel the effects of my body and it's something that is new for me. My veins throb like I'm freezing from the inside out, pain controls my body as every inch of me aches. My eyes flutter open, what once was a bright blue sky is now grey, the clouds cover my view only letting the small slivers of sky through them. My breathing echoes through through my head, it's so loud even though everything is so quite, when I hold my breath I can hear my heart beat slowly and it amazes me.
I tuck my legs my chest and let my body sink into the water as it submerges, I open my eyes and the blur of bubbles enclose me. I naturally rise to the surface and my eyes wander around the landscape of Coldwater. I'm eyes are drawn to a figure of the edge of the pier, it's like a silhouette but as my eyes focus it's a girl leaning over the barrier. I'm intrigued, by her unique beauty and the familiarity of her. Norri.
My hands grip the rusty ladder that I use to hoist myself onto the wooden cladding of the dock. My wet black Levis hang loose around my waist, deep purple scars no longer exposed to the human eye but behind the rough, worn exterior of the thing that i call my body there is beauty that lingers behind me but only I can see.
I place myself a sort distance away from her, I don't want to intrude her thoughts, not matter how tempting it is. We built a relationship on trust, if she can get past the life I once lived and trust me than I owe her the same respect. As if she knew someone was watching her she turned, her gorgeous urban brown hair flowed with the sudden movement. Her greyish blue eyes meet with my dark once and slowly she moved towards me, it was like magnets where pulling us together. I close my eyes and take in the scent of her, she smells like the flowers that coat the nature strips on a warm spring morning and the scent of the floral aroma feels the air .
Her cold hands touch my chest, they're cold like the water but not cold enough that I can't feel the heat against my skin. Norri's hands move up to my shoulders, they ran over my shoulder blades and to where the scars of my past had vanished. My skin was still sensitive but now Norri wasn't taken a dark place when touching my them.
"I can't believe they've gone." She mumbles, her voice just over a whisper but not clear enough to for a passing citizens to hear but the place was dead, it's like a ghost town.
"It's the sacrifice I'll make for you." I match her tone as I speak.
it was almost soothing knowing that we don't need to be watching our every move and could just be in this moment together. Having the opportunity that I wanted all my life flashed in front of me, it was scary but I had to make a choice, was it Love or my dreams. Than it hit me, taking my dream wouldn't be anything with out Norri and my love for her, after that my decision was easy. I picked love, I couldn't be happier and now I can walk the earth like I wanted but also have Norri as well.
"You never wanted to be a guardian." She speaks with such weakness, she's vulnerable but through this whole situation the last couple of months she was so strong.
"I wanted you Norri, turning into a guardian just means that now I get to watch over you, be with you and protect you forever. I didn't want to loose you, I could never live with myself if I choose to be human over my love for you. I'd have to live in this world without you, with human emotions and feelings I don't think I could do it." As the words left my mouth I felt my heart race like it never has before.
It never registered until now how much Norri changed me, a year ago every inch of my body wanted to kill her, I wanted to be human and Norri being a descendent of a Nephilim meant sacrificing her was my free access pass to being human but now I dropped it all just to spend everyday with her in my arms.
"Now I have my own guardian angel, who sneaks into my room at night to check up on me. I've seen you Patch, you need to work on being a little more quite because mum will catch you." She laughs, it's rare for her to laugh but when she does it's like angels are singing.
I pull her into a hug, her hands rest where my wings are. It's the strangest feeling because they are there but she can't see them, It's like her warm hands sink through and touch my bare skin. I feel her warm breath against my skin, I rest my forehead against hers and I watch her look deep into my eyes.
Around hear my emotions run wild, I've never felt like this before, everyday I swear I fall more in love with her and everyone can see it. People don't she me as a threat anymore because I'm to busy following Nori like a lost puppy, I'm still always scared that something bad will happen and she'll get ripped away from me or I'll be sent back. Leaving her would ruin me.
"You're eyes never scared me, they intrigued me." She whispers, her hands move to my face as she softly runs her thumb across my cheek bones. "They sent the good kind of adrenaline through my body."
I close my eyes slowly, I let the feeling of Norri's soft touch sink in and I almost sigh in relief. This is what I wanted for so long, the feeling of someone effect on you emotionally, physically and mentally.
"You changed me Norri." My voice becomes broken, I felt sad but happy at the same time. I can't understand why I'm getting so worked up about this. Is this what love is, not being able to control your emotions?
"I wanted you because of the darkness, you sparked something inside of me that wanted more no matter how much trouble I'll be in. I knew that it was wrong but it was new and I loved it. You were different and I wanted to get to know you but than I got emotionally attached and tried everything to get you to leave but the whole time I couldn't because it became more. I fell in love with the fallen."
