Thursday, April 28, 2016
*trigger warnings: mentions of depression, self harm, and suicide*septicsean: i wish you'd tell me what's going on
mef95: I can't.
septicsean: and why not?
mef95: I wouldn't want you to hate me. I couldn't handle it if you hated me.
septicsean: mark...
septicsean: i would never ever hate you
septicsean: i probably wouldn't even be able to make myself hate you if you killed someone
septicsean: i love you markmef95: Do you really mean that?
septicsean: well yeah
septicsean: you're my best friend
septicsean: you're supposed to love your best friend right?mef95: Of course.
septicsean: now will you tell me or not?
mef95: Seán, I..
mef95: I guess, to put it simply, I have depression. Really badly. I have anxiety issues and I... A part of me
mef95: just
mef95: doesn't want to be here anymore. I can't keep pretending to be happy when I'm really not, I can't keep dreaming that one day I'll wake up, and I'll remember how good it feels to be content. I'll remember how it feels, not wanting to rip a blade through my skin.
mef95: But when? When will I get to find my happiness? When will things start to get better?septicsean: i don't know mark
septicsean: i wish i had an answer for you
septicsean: i wish i didn't have the same questions so maybe i could try to help youmef95: Seán...
mef95: We'll be okay, Seán.septicsean: nobody knows that mark
mef95: Lets make a promise to each other, alright?
septicsean: what is it..?
mef95: No more pretending that it's okay, not with each other. We always need to tell each other if something's wrong.
septicsean: i dunno if i can make that promise
septicsean: ive gone for years without telling anyone
septicsean: it's gonna be really hard to startmef95: I know, same here. But we need to try, right? Make an attempt to get better?
septicsean: and help each other through this?
mef95: Exactly. It'll be okay, won't it? Eventually?
septicsean: yeah
septicsean: it will bemef95: Hey, Seán?
septicsean: yeah?
mef95: Do you wanna skype again?
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Message Me [Septiplier]
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