Fragile

Eight

"God," he sighed, "I uh... Sydney, you know I'd never leave you with that bastard,I would never do that to you. Never." He looked me in the eyes and I nodded.

"I know.. It just.. It seemed so real. So fucking real." I humourlessly laughed.

"It's okay," Cody held my face with his hands, "I'm here now."

I smiled thankfully and then noticed Aubrey wasn't here.

"Where's Aubrey?" I scrunched up my eyebrows.

"She's downstairs, along with everyone else. We thought we'd let you sleep, I came into your room to wake you up and you were shouting 'drake'." He stood up and I realised he was still in his pyjamas.

"Come on, let's go eat breakfast." He grinned and I got off the bed.

"Wait, uh, don't tell the others please." I said and he smiled.

"Of course."

I followed him downstairs to the kitchen and our friends were sitting on the kitchen stools, eating and chatting about something.

"Finally you're awake." Tyler joked and his smile faltered when he looked at my face.

Like I said before, when I cry, you can tell afterwards because my eyes and nose stay red for a while, which was a big downfall for me.

"What's up?" Tyler worriedly asked and I looked at Cody nervously.

"Nothing." I smiled, but it wasn't genuine, it was just to reassure Tyler that I was fine.

He looked unconvinced, but nonetheless, we sat down and ate the yummy breakfast Tyler has prepared for us.

I was gobbling my Cheerios down, because I was so hungry.

I dozed off into my own world when I started thinking about my nightmare. I've never had any nightmares like that before, this was something different, strange.

I know that Drake would never do that to me in real life, because he wasn't exactly as bad as others made him out to be. But I just didn't get why Drake would cheat on me. When we were together, it seemed like he genuinely cared for me, loved me.

He would even talk about the future with me, and that wasn't something guys would usually like to talk about. Was our relationship one big lie and joke for him? Did he actually truly mean those things?

The day I caught him fucking my older sister literally broke me. I was so close to beating the shit out of him. I had came to his house on our anniversary as a surprise, because he said he wouldn't be able to come to mine and that we'd go out later.

I walked into his room and he was on top of my sister. I had angrily walked towards him and slapped him. 'I hate you.' Was all I said. I regret it because I should've asked him about us. If he felt the way I did. If he meant the things he said.

But I didn't, and I still haven't. I couldn't even believe my sister would do something like that to me. She knew I loved him, I would talk about him all day to her. We were like best friends! Even now, I don't talk to her. I know I should because we're sisters, she did apologise, but I can't forgive her. Just not now, not yet.

I don't get why Drake wants me back though. Why did he cheat on me then? He didn't love me, and I don't get why he wants me back.

I've had enough of him. I'm not going to forgive him, definitely not. And I'm definitely not getting back with him. All of my feelings for him died after a while, and I've moved on. I have.

I think the only reason why I actually started dating Drake was because I was trying to forget about Cody. I know that was like using him, but when we were together, I did develop feelings for him, and I did love him. I used to. And then after I broke up with Drake, the feelings I felt for Cody came and hit me in the face.