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Ugh... Bird poop

I cheated myself I couldn't hold of and I checked on my ex sissy. And I even went as far as talking to her. I made a bad slip up tonight and I really need to stop . But I couldn't help myself when I was checking on her and how she felt about me. It was bad enough I had forgiven and ran off on rage. But I'm really trying to change and it's hard to do while she's here. But I'm sad when she's not here. I really miss her and hate her at the same time . I just hope I can change soon when I'm changed we can work on speaking with each other again. And I don't think I could ever really hate her actually just strongly dislike her

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