Unfinished

Chapter 6

I laid there in the dark... Not wanting to move. Chris arms were still wrapped around me and the moon was shining down onto the floor near the bed. I had been staring at that spot for at least an hour..trying to figure out what the hell was I doing. I got shaken out of my thoughts as I heard a constant buzzing on the nightstand and a light spreading across the ceiling. Chris moved a little but he never actually woke up. "Chris.." I said touching his arm. He moved a little and then pulled me closer to him. I sighed...I wanted this... I wanted this for so long but I felt so bad knowing that I didnt have Chris to myself. "CHRIS.." I said a little louder. "Yes, baby.." Really? He's not going to make this easy. "Your phone is ringing. ...think you might wanna get that." He sighed and rolled over and grabbed his phone. He never answered it. Instead I heard him set it back down and then rolled back over to me. I got up; removing his arm from around me and making my way to the bathroom. I pushed the door up slightly and stood in the mirror. Wonder would I have felt this bad if I had slept with Lee? I turned on the water and ran my hand under it for a while as my thoughts consumed me. "Kai?" I looked up and saw Chris standing behind me in the mirror. "Yeah?" "Are you okay?" He walked up closer behind me and ran his hand across my naked hip. "Im fine... just...thinking." I gave him a forced smile and then turned to face him. He was trying to read me. His hazel eyes were staring right through me. "Dont." I said while trying to push past him but he didnt budge. "Dont what?" "Dont try to read me." "I wouldnt have to if you told me what was on your mind." I sighed and folded my arms across my breasts. "I feel guilty, Chris." He sighed and licked his lips. "You really wanna do this right now?" "Is there ever really gonna be a good time to do this? You're with someone and she's probably calling you or texting you wondering where you are and why you're not answering..meanwhile we're standing here after going at it all night." "Do you regret it?" "Dont ask me that." "I dont understand why you readin so deep into this. You let me worry about Ava." "Ava....so thats her name?" He sighed as I walked past him. I didnt want him here. I hated that I even did this. I began to grab clothes out of the drawers and I felt him walk behind me. "Babe.." "Chris, Im not your babe. Im sure Ava is..and Im sure shes worried about you." "Kai can you just stop...for one second." I ignored him as I slid on my clothes and grabbed my phone. "KAI" He yelled and I jumped and stood there in shock. Chris was always a calm person.. rarely got mad or even raised his voice. He shook his head and ran his hand down his face and walked up to me. "Earlier I asked you a question..I asked you what you wanted." "...it doesnt matter what I-" "It does to me. So just answer...the question." I was confused. What did he want from me and why was he trying so hard to satisfy me and what I wanted? Or was I dumb for questioning it in the first place. "What difference does it make, Chris? You're with her. Knowing what I want won't change anything." He looked down for a moment and then walked a little closer to me. "You already made a difference, babe." "What? Chris you're not making any-" " If you want me to.. I'll leave her." WHAT. DID HE ...he can't be serious. "Chris.. don't play games with me. I-" "I'm not playin with you Kai. All you gotta do is tell me the words and I'll leave her." Was I in the fucking twilight zone? The past 24 hours have felt like a freaking soap opera. How does the love of my life just walk back in like ten years hasn't gone by? Then you have Lee. Seemed like a nice guy but on top of that FINE AS ALL HELL. And out of all the guys at the party.. the best looking ones wanted me. I'm getting punkd. I have to be. "Kai?" He called my name, shaking me out of my thoughts. " Chris.. I'm not a home wrecker. I don't do this. I'm not gonna tell you what I want because that's not fair to her. And I refuse to be the side chick. This .. whatever this is? .. it has to stop." He sat down on the edge of the bed and sighed. He rested his elbows on his knees while clasping his hands together up under his chin. "Kai...do you want me?" His voice was different this time. Harsher than normal but it was...calm. His eyes were now glued on me and I ....I froze. "....Yes." The words basically fell from my lips before I could even realize that... I just fucked up. He did it again. How the fuck does he keep getting to me like this? "Come here.." I sighed and walked over to him. He placed his large hands on my waist and pulled me closer while first staring at my stomach and then up at me. "I'll break up with her." "How is it just that easy for you?" "...we haven't been together long. I've been trying to explain that to you...but you was freakin out all the fuckin time."He laughed lowly and I smacked his arm. "How long have y'all been together?" You mean to tell me all this time I was thinking they were like in love and shit...and they just got together? "A couple weeks. We fucked around a couple times and she was cool but when we became official,she started actin all weird. Being super insecure and shit." "Well..look at us..she actually has a reason to feel that way." I began to pull back but he instantly pulled me back towards him. "We weren't gonna last anyway. And if breaking up with her means getting another chance for us then why not?" He licked his lips and stood up with his hands still remaining on my hips. Those eyes...fuck. "So...you're gonna break up with her...and then what?" "That's up to you and what you want from me." "Where is all this coming from?" "..what do you mean?" "Chris..I haven't seen you in ten years. We bump into each other at a bar and now we're talking about the possibility of us being together all within 24 hours. If you felt this way about me then why am I just now knowing versus you saying something before." He cocked his head to the side. "Why do you think im here, Kai?" "..What?" "Did you forget that you blocked me on everything and got a new number?" "...Well you ignored me! What else was I supposed to do? I was embarrassed....and my feelings were hurt." He smirked a little and rubbed his right and up and down the side of my hip. "Im sorry. Imma try to make it up to you now." "..you really moved back here for me? Why didn't you try to reach out to me. You were comin in my sisters bar all the time and everything." "I wanted it to happen naturally. I didn't forget how we left things. I couldn't just come find you and ask you do you still feel the same." I stood there looking at him for a moment and then down at my feet. He came back for me? Why? "When did you realize you wanted me back?" I asked lowly while looking back up at him. "...a while ago." He let go of me and walked over to the other side of the bed and looked at his phone. "...what happened?" He sat on the bed and without looking up at me he said, "Nothin." See, heres he crazy thing. Yes, Chris and I hadn't seen each other in years, but we were best friend sat one point.And just how he can read me.. I can read him, and something happened. "Don't do that.." He looked up. "Do what?" "Don't lie to me. What happened?" "Can we not do this right now?" "Why cant you just tell me?" "Kai, we just came back into each others life. Im not sayin I wont tell you... but can we just drop it for now?" "..You can fuck me but you cant tell me the real reason why you came back? Fine." "What? I just told you I came back for you. What the hell are you talkin about?" "Obviously whatever happened made you think about us and thats why you came back. Dont bull shit me Chris." He sighed and stood up. "I promise you we will talk about it. I just dont wanna get into it right now." I rolled my eyes and he made his was over to me. "Im not tryna hold back from you alright? I just want us to move slow...like I wanted before." He was right. I was doing it again. Diving head first and having expectations. I wouldn't be questioning Lee like this if we slept together. Fuck.. why am I even thinking of him? "Fine." I said shortly. "...you want me to stay?" He placed his hands on my lower back and pulled me to him. I guess with everything we just spoke of it was no point to send him home right? He was gonna break up with her and continue whatever...this was between us. "You actually wanna stay?" "Of course I wanna stay." He said lowly while placing a peck on my lips. Then that peck turned into a kiss. My arms wrapped around his neck as he placed his hands on the back ofmy thighs and scooped me up. The kiss was getting even more intense at this point and I could feel him rising beneath my ass. He turned around and laid me down on the bed while sliding down his basketball shorts. I bit my lip as  he hung before me. I guess he caught me staring and a smirk came across his face. " Can you take this again?" He asked lowly. As if that was a fucking question.