Rants about Depression,suicide,selfharm and anxiety and they all kill

I NEED SOME HELP GUS

Guys I know I need help but I'm not going to go and talk to a therapist or any on that coz I don't want to be sent to a mental ward, so I just was wondering if any of you would be willing to help me with my depression , but I'm sure your lives are all just as busy and stuff so I really don't expect it but I thought I would ask.

I'm a pretty pethetic girlfriend as it is I can't even help my boyfriend with what's going on in his life and it makes me feel really bad coz I can't help him at. it makes me feel so worthless like he could do better then me someone who can comfort him but.

I just wish I could end it all but I'm not selfish and I can't do it. I don't get who would want to be with a depressed suicidal girl, who just. Is a emotional wreck and is worthless and everything else

~Never let them take the lights behind your eyes and keep running this is neonmidnight signing out