Thoughts they come in ebbs and floes bringing with them tidal flows and many, many strange ideas of death and destruction, mayhem and chaos and this I put up with for weeks, months and months, for so many years this has been my daily ordeal. I've screamed at myself so many times "to get these thoughts out of my mind"
I think some times 'should I end it all'
But then again I don't want to be just another statistic.
It happened again today, I killed another. Oh how I enjoyed it.
Please help me, please oh please, I beg and beg for help.
