Marcel

Chapter 33

“School was horrible without you,” Cami says as she bites into her pizza.

“I'm sure it couldn't have been that bad!” I say.

“It was. But there was one good thing...”

“What was that?”

“Oh, uh, I, um, I aced a Spanish test we took last week.”

“That's great!” I feel like she's hiding something. She didn't have a Spanish test last week, I least I don't think she did... She wouldn't hide something from me, would she? I don't think she would anyways.

When we're done, Cami and I went to my studio. I needed to see it. I've never not gone a week without it before. I'm sitting on the piano bench just playing random things, and Cami is sitting on the couch.

“Was it bad?” she asks me, coming to sit beside me on the piano bench.

I stop playing and turn to her, “In the beginning, I'll admit, it was bad. I felt like I was being inspected by all the doctors and therapists. I didn't like sharing my feelings either, it felt weird. We had to sit in a circle and share our stories. But then it felt good, I was letting it out. And all the other people were struggling too, so they understood what I was going through. No one as there to judge you, you could just get your feelings out...”

“That's good... Who was the girl you hugged before we left? She seemed sad...”

“That's Ellie. I think she liked me...” I say, blushing.

“Oooo la la. Someone likes Marcel,” she says, leaning her head into my shoulder.

“Stop,” I say giggling.

“You're turning into such a ladies man! My gosh!”

“I would never. I have you and that's all I need.”

“Good, because you're all I need.”

“Cami,” I say quietly, “I've been thinking the past week... How I was judged by how I looked... Why'd you even talk to me in the first place?”

“You seemed nice. And I wanted to be your friend because I wanted to know more about you. You seem interesting...”

“So you judged me by looks too, just the opposite from everyone else?”

“No, I saw you get pushed down in the hall that first day. And I felt bad and wanted to get to know you. And then we became friends. And then I fell for you... Then the kiss cam and I thought you didn't like it like I did. But you did,” she says, smiling, “And I love you for who you are now and who you were when I first met you. I don't care if you have glasses or a high pitched voice. Even though I must say you're quite attractive now, but you were before too. I'd still love you without all this. You are you and that's the best you can be.”

“Why'd you fall for me?”

“I fell in love with you for you. Mostly your personality, because that's the best part about you. Your kindness and intelligence. The way you think things through. And when you're concentrated, your eyebrows furrow together and you bite your lip. Your cute laugh that shows off your nice smile and your dimple. And your voice is amazing and I can easily love someone who can sing and play guitar. Everything about you is perfect. You're the best I could ask for.”

“I'm no where near perfect.”

“You're the closest to perfection out of everyone I know.”

“Yeah, right,” I kiss her gently, “I love you. Thank you.”

She smiles and kisses me again, “No need to thank me. Just telling the truth.”

That night, I looked closely at myself in the mirror. I'm trying to find what Cami loves. I guess I'm not as ugly as I thought. My nose is too big and I hate my dimples and my skin. But I'll learn to love them. I'll learn to love myself.

“I am smart,” I say to myself in the mirror, “I am kind. I'm a good singer. I like my hair.”

I tell myself the only compliments I believe are true. Those four compliments are a start to a more confident me. I'll add one on whenever I can, and I'll repeat these to myself every night.

I'm going to be the best Marcel I can be.

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