Stuck

Relapse

I'm stuck. I'm not stuck the way you think I am, I'm not stuck physicially, I'm  not stuck in a lie and I'm  not stuck on a math question. I am stuck in life. I'm stuck on the way you think I can forget about the past. I'm stuck on how how you think nothing you ever said hurt me and I'm stuck on every lie you told me to "protect me" because I never needed protection and I definitely don't need protecting anymore.

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I'm tierd,I'm tierd of being treated like I'm nothing, and I'm tiered of pretending to be something. I'm tierd of pretending everything is ok when it's not. Tierd is an under statement, I'm exausted. I'm exausted of everything.

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I'm meaningless, I'm meaningless to those I once called my friends. I'm meaningless to that one person I have always adored and I meaningless to myself. I'm meaningless to everyone because they can see past me. They couldent see past apprance to the inside. Just so you know I was there for everyone I was there for all of you I was there every step of the way and you ment everything to me but I ment nothing to you.

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I'm done,I'm done hiding in the shadows. Im done with living my life like this and I'm done being the one that is afraid cause guess what I'm NOT. Not anymore.

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I'm ready, I'm ready to become the person I want to be with the friends that matter, and people I care about. Not the backstabing, horrible people that you fear. Im turrning the tables and they are being turned on you. You will regret every bad comment you told behind my back because I know and I always have, don't pretend like you never thought I was anything to you because I know and I always have, don't pretend like you never treated me wrong because you have and you always have.