A/N:
Yes, I do realize it's been over a month since I last updated this story.
Sorry....
Here is a hug to make it better.
(>^_^)>
<(^o^<)
Forgive me?
I'm trying to get back into this story, so updates should start happening again.
Enjoy.
*Alex pov*
I sit, lazily and aimlessly browsing the Internet, trying to distract myself. The past few days, I've been feeling extremely dejected.
James doesn't want to get married. Not now. Not ever. He's never even thought about it, in the two years we've been together.
Honestly, this shouldn't come as a shock to me. James is a very "in the moment" kinda guy. The pretty only sees what's in front of him, never thinking about the future. He goes with whatever he feels at the moment, never considering the consequences that will result.
I frown. Somewhat at the situation, but mostly at myself. I knew this is how James was when we got together. It's my own fault, I should've seen this coming.
Yet, knowing this is just who James is, doesn't make it hurt less.
In the two years we've been a couple, James has never once thought of a future with me. It's never even crossed his mind.
Ryan and Blake were only together like a year before they got engaged for fucks sake!
Sigh...
Calm down Alex. This isn't about Ryan and Blake. This is about you and Jay.
I honestly have pictured our lives, years from now, a few times. Nice house, marriage, good jobs, a few kids maybe. A beautiful life, just me and the love of my life. However, this dream now seems to be farther away then I thought.
I can't look James in the eyes anymore, because all I see in them is sorrow and longing. Longing to change his mind, and sorrow to find he can't. I can't honestly blame him for the way he feels, that would just make me a terrible boyfriend. I'm honestly not mad at him, I'm just incredibly sad. Sad because the dream I had in my mind, of our lives together, seems that it will always stay a dream, never becoming reality.
I come to the conclusion, that me and James need to spend a little time apart. Not take a break from the relation ship, just take a step back for a while.
Maybe I could go spend some time with Samantha. I smile at the thought, that would be nice.
Grabbing my phone I call her, to my surprise, she doesn't answer. I frown slightly, trying again. Maybe she didn't hear it or something. Finally, after a few rings, I hear the click.
"Hello?" A voice fills my ear, but it's not Sam.
"Ry?" I ask.
"Alex! Thank god it's you, I was just about to call you. Something rather serious happened, we need you to come down here right away." He says worriedly. I frown at the tone of his voice.
"Is everything okay?"
"Yeah yeah, just get here, fast!"
"Um okay, I'll leave right away."
There's a loud pop on his end, followed by sound of several tiny things hitting the floor.
"Shit!"
