Random book of randomness

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Why does life have to be so sad.

I dunno. I am suppose to celebrate like this.

YAY I GOT THE POST I WANTED!

but i still havent. I don't feel happy much even about that... Instead, it's just depression filling me right now ;-;

I just don't know why. Nothings making me feel any better. Good food and chocolate usually does it's job but it didn't work at all this time.

Then what my mum said was true. Heres what happened.

Me: my friend didn't get selected for the post. I feel sad for her. But then again the person who was selcted was my friend too.

Mum: to be honest, it seems to me that you feel sad for others and worry about them. But they don't feel the same for you at all.

Yes. Mum. That is just so true. I feel like i am still no one in class and am not welcome there.

And there is a certain girl in class who acts so annoying that i just wanna punch her in the face sometimes. But others love her and find her as a comedian.

I think teachers are starting to hate me due to my incomplete works. ;-; how can i complate when i'm sick you dumb teacher? Do you expect me to think of anything when i have a big headache?

People only notice me when they need me. If they don't, i'm nobody. Amd i was today.
Today in bio, we made pizza. While making it, i told them i wanted to mix the dough. Did anyone listen? NO. They pretended they never heard me when i kept repeating and finally, when mixing, it almost got ruined. Ok, the girl, admittently was good at that stuff but i don't think she made pizza dough before. Neither did i. But they were mixing it the exact same way in a video. I knew i could do it like fondent mixing since i'm good at it.  But they didn't listen. They gave me the lousiest stuff like washing dishes. Seriously, i hated it. Amd the teacher told her to mix it with flour entirely with it. I knew the entire thing will go into peices and will be hard to get it into one. Did anyone listen again? NO! They just did like that and knew what i was saying right after it was done. Luckily,  the dough got into one easily.

I feel like am unappreciated girl who is practicularly invisible in class now. Even my old class accepts me more than them. Even my swimming buddies are WAY better than them!

My swimming friends were my closest friends but they are in other schools so blah. I'm lucky to have them but i'm so unlucky to have such bad classmates. And i still have to survive next year with the same people. How will i if i can't survive even at this point and last year?

Sorry for the complaints guys. I'm just sick of this. I probably am gonna be silent around for a bit. PM me if you want. I'm okay to chat. Just don't over do it...

Oh amd yeah, i did get selected for that post i was campaigning for by just 5 votes.

Bye. I hope you guys have better days than me....

-a super depressed saraevo