Chapter 37 ~ If You See Kay & Forgiveness

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So I turn on my heels and with my back on the door, I sit on the floor with my legs crossed. I grab the guitar I brought with me —see? Prepared!— and start to strum some chords. “Get comfortable ‘cos I’ll be here for a while,” I warn her and I clear my throat. I spend a whole day looking for the perfect song to sing to her. Turns out I found a few.

She said I won the battle but I lost the war
And now my head is sore
And If I try to sail back in
She's gonna push me from the shore
Now I won't ever get the time of day
No way, no way, no
Not for what I said but for what I didn't say,
What I didn't say, so

 

I start singing the song the represents the most what’s going on with us. I mean, it’s almost as if she was quoting the song.

If you see Kay
Will you tell her that I love her?
And if you see Kay
Let her know I want her back
If she listens, say I'm missing
Everything about her
Make sure you say I'm sweet FA without her
If you see Kay

 

I don’t stop here, I keep singing because I want her to know I love her and I’m sure that in one moment she’ll open the door just to make me shut up. Still playing that song by The Script, I change the melody because as I said, there were too many songs to describe what I feel. I couldn’t pick one.

Why do you rub me up the wrong way?
Why do you say the things that you say?
Sometimes I wonder how we ever came to be
But without you I'm incomplete
 

I think it must be
True love, true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like
True love, true love,
It must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you
No one else can break my heart like you
No one else can break my heart like you

 

Above the chords I play I hear her laughing and I smile as I keep singing, mashing up more songs. Turns out, P!nk is connected to my life, too.

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time I've kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da, da da


I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
When my heart is broken
Da da da, da da


Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me


I’m honestly thinking of charging them for writing these songs. And I’m singing an awful amount of girls’ songs. This is a low blow to my male ego.

When I met you I didn't really like you
First impression was you were somebody who'd
Walk right by when I waved at you and say 'Hi'
But they say, Hey!
 

Bad beginnings make happy endings
Now that I know you
I begin to understand things
It's turn around a hundred and eighty degrees
I found my missing piece 

There's something about you
That's like the sun
You warm up my heart
When I come undone 

You’re like my soul-mate
And on those days
When I hurt
When I break
You are my band aid

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