mother

26

I want to burn out, to fade away.
to never ever get to see the light of day again.
Diana said all I needed was you, your love,
your presence, not your presents.
she said being a parent is a 365 day job.
I disagree. you shouldn't feel that raising me is
'work' then again..you didn't 'raise' me at all.
I hated living in cars,
I hate sleeping on soiled mattresses
and I hated the smell of smoke
but when I intake that cheap liquor,
it reminds me of home..
I swore I'd never drink,
that I'd never be like you..
I am you. I'm a monster.