Salim and Kayal #Watty's 2016 # YourStoryIndia #ProjectWomanUp

Love??????

Kayal's POV

I walked briskly from the roundtanna towards my hostel room. My head is pounding. I don't know how I ended up having such a serious communication with Salim. I have never spoken about such things to anybody else. He must be thinking of me as some sort of crazy woman. I couldn't stop myself from writing everything in my heart. Thankfully he didn't discuss about it.

As soon as I reached my room Jaanu asked me, "Why are you looking so dull? You were with Ali, right?"

I replied, "That guy seriously gives me a headache."

She asked me, "I thought you will come with a heart ache. But, you have come with a headache. What happened?"

I retorted, "My heart is protected by 360 degree security. NOBODY can give me a heart ache."

Before I could go on Sara spoke, "When it comes to your heart, you can never be so sure. One day when you lose it, you will never even know what stuck you and how you lost it."

Jaanu teased Sara, "She is the experienced one in losing heart. Listen to her."

Sara cringed, "Enough about me. Talk about Ali. Don't you find him handsome enough to enter your heart?"

What happened to Sara? Why is she asking me such questions? "Of course, he is too handsome, he has a beautiful smile, a cute dimple and he has got the sexiest hair I have seen in men. I always have the urge to run my fingers through it. But, that is not a pre requisite to offer my heart in a platter."

Sara continued with her questioning, "Oh yeah, then what are the pre requisites to ask for your heart?"

How do I explain her? "Sara, I am not ready to lose my heart in the first case. For me love is a commitment. Commitment for a life time. For that, I want to find a guy, who has to accept me and respect me for whom I am. He has to accept me with my anti religious views, feminist policies and whatever I stand for. I need somebody to trust me for what I am and stand by me. I also want to trust that person for what he is, respect him and accept him for being himself. If I find that type of guy, mark my words, I will never let him go".

Again Sara was the one to speak, "Kayal, people change a lot for love."

"Sara, a little bit of change here and there is okay, because that is what a relationship is all about. But, I don't want to change in such a way that one day I wake up to see myself as somebody else's mirror image. In that case your love for that person becomes your weakness. I want my love to be my strength, my feed to my soul, someone who can tell me that 'come what may I have your back'. When I get such a guy in my life, I will love him to the moon and back."

Jaanu now joined in, "All the best to find such a guy. But let me tell you, you have very high standards."

I laughed, "My parents are to be blamed for that. They have set really high standards for me. It is easy to fall for a guy, who calls you as a Princess, Darling, Sweet heart, babe and what not. But, its real love when that guy respects you as his equal partner, a companion for his life time. Is it too much to ask for?"

Sara replied now, "I don't think so. You deserve the best Kayal. I just hope that the one who is listening to, understands you. You are quite rare Kayal. I wish he lets you be the same Kayal forever."

I now had a question mark in my face, "Who is 'he' here?"

Sara nodded her head, "I meant 'He' as in Jesus Christ."

I replied, "Thank you for your wishes sweet heart."

Now Jaanu spoke with me, "Coming to the headache part, why is Ali giving you a head ache? Did he fight or argue with you?"