Lonely.
Frustrated.
Flowers glazed over with fog
And the mist is cascaded over my head
Laying on the floor
For hours in bed
The ground is spinning and I'm in the middle of the eye
A tornado turning
I'm trying to defend myself
But nothing's coming after me
Day after day is the same
A volcano erupting but I'm protected
Embedded within the magma
I'm looking for something to claim
Something that's not the same
Caught in the wind but not a hair out of place
Annoyance
Abundance of perfection
Natural disasters
Can't keep me from lying down
In the middle of anywhere
And nothing would bother me
Forever
Where's the lever
The one that lets me out of a cage
Can't go out
Isolated by my own voice
Caught in flames
But perfect rain keeping me safe
Grabbing the shards of glass
But my hands don't get a hint of shave
Six hours of doing nothing
Trash
A waste
My own guard is becoming my panic
My stress
I'm creating angst
I'm becoming my own problem
But there's no left to the right
And yet i'm losing the race
There's no therapy I'm giving
But refusing to accept
That my head is driving up the wall
I'm going mad
I'm catching myself in a bawl
Floods breaking through dams
But I'm trapped within this safety glass
Sand storm
I'm covered and my wall is against the back
I'm walking about with headphones blaring
Not caring what people are saying
Not caring about the staring
I'm sick of causing my own issues
Nothing is coming at me
But I'm putting energy into a military force
It's hard to breath when I go at myself
I'm reloading a gun I haven't even fired
I'm waiting for a battle that isn't coming
I'm racing for a solution
I'm fighting back people
I'm pushing through a crowd
Of outstretched hands
I'm ducking, jumping and spiraling
I've been overthinking
I'm piling up
Everything is consuming
I'm fighting my own battle
When it's already finished
I need to let this shit go
Can't hold onto it forevermore
It needs extinguished
I need to let my past go
Because time isn't going to go slow.
