Stained Hearts

Forgive & Forget

Forgive and forget,
That's what they say,
No pain, no regret,
Cast those memories away.

Don't hold onto your past,
It'll give you nightmares,
Be at peace at long last,
No more running from fears.
Restart your life,
Let your burdened thoughts be lifted,
Get rid of your strife,
Look more at with what you are gifted.

But don't they see,
Woe is me,
I can't get rid of my memory so easily.
Though I've disposed of any grudge,
I'll let you be the judge,
The things I remember won't let me go free.
I'm a prisoner of thought,
A lost battle that's already been fought,
At times I feel my brain has been shot,
By a lonely bullet coming in hot.

But the memories don't haunt me,
At most they just taunt me,
They creep up in my late-night sleep,
I seem to count wolves instead of sheep.
They play in the back of my mind,
They cover up my daydreams,
They're making me blind.

Though some memories fade,
Most of mine have stayed,
Reminding me of the messes I've made,
Taking me back to being afraid,
If only had I obeyed,
My life wouldn't already be so frayed.

But who would want to be isolated,
In this broken mind-palace which they've created,
Feeling all lonely and frustrated,
That their happiness was always belated,
And that hope seemed too outdated.
I don't have to be left in these chains,
The will of the heart is stronger than the brain's,
And though there'll be bruises and permanent stains,
I don't have to be ruled by my own mental pains.

But not all of my memories are all that bad,
Not every remembrance has to be sad,
When I think of all the joyous times I had,
Because once upon a time, I was glad.
These are what have built me stronger,
The pain hurts at first,
But the lesson always lasts longer.
Who needs drugs and alcohol,
To forget the future, present, and past?
I just need to learn from it all,
If I really want a clear conscience at long last.

Forgive but don't forget,
Try to learn from your own regret,
Don't let your memories be a threat,
Because your life isn't over yet.