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-JERIC-

Nag usap pala sila Jenny at Lorr and might go somewhere to shop.

"Isabay mo nalang ako. I bet you won't like getting stucked with them while shopping." Hirit ni Kyle.

Pareho kasi kaming bagot sumama sa stroll. Yung totoo kasi... hindi pala ako kasama sa lakad nila today. Powerplant dapat sila but Lorr insisted to have lunch first sa Rob Mag since dadaanan ko pauwi yun from practice.

I knew how my reaction got serious after realizing na planado pala lahat ng nangyayari lately between Lorr and I.

"Wag mo na isipin yun. Think of it this way, kaya ka nandito because you'll bail me out. Look, I don't have to drive for them. Thanks talaga, pare." Hirit ni Kyle. Whom obviously trying to divert the topic.

Pinagamit nya nalang yung kotse nya kay Jenny para di na sya sumama. Then, nag-alibi na dadaan daw sya ng bahay to catch up with Dad. Sige na, Kyle. Lusot ka na.

"Is there anything bugging you out, man?" He asked.

I rephrased his question to myself...

Why am I allowing Lorr to bug me out?

"Naninibago lang siguro ako kay Lorr." I said earning a chuckle from Kyle.

"Anong nakakatawa dun?" I asked back.

"Kahit kami naman. Jenny and I find her weird these days."

He told me that Lorr's asking for the barkada to help her out na yayain ako or for me to join kapag may lakad yung group. Kahit nga daw sabihin nila na busy ako, imposibleng walang masa-suggest si Lorr para maisama talaga ako.

"Ah, so binibugaw nyo ko kay Lorr?" I shot back.

"No dude. Ikaw lang kasi eh. Ikaw na ang hinahabol ng babae ayaw mo pa."

I guess my friends either knew me too well or they do not know me that much yet.

Magulo ba?

They knew me too well... to the extent na alam nilang nahihirapan na rin akong maging single. Laging third or fifth wheel. Gusto na siguro nilang makita na magkaroon ng direction ang buhay ko. Yung may makasama ako habang iniisip kung ano ba dapat ang path na iprioritize ko.

Or... They don't know me that much... Kasi baka naman they aren't looking at the deeper side of things. Yung, baka iniisip nila na I'm close to being desperate when it comes to looking for someone to be in a relationship with.

To be honest, I'm lost somewhere in between. Ayokong magmadali kasi ayokong magkamali...

Pero natatakot ako talaga na baka late na ang lahat before I can figure out what I want.

"Ano na bang balita kay wattpad writer? Baka sa sobrang slow update mo maunahan ka na ng iba." Kyle's question brought me back to my senses.

Napaisip tuloy ako ulit. How can I possibly know kung dapat ko bang ipursue yung kay Gab when my own mom tells me otherwise?

Sa edad kong to, have I made tons of wrong decisions na ba to let mom decide for me? Should I really let her decide for me?

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-GAB-

"Sasama sana ako magroadtrip pabalik ng Makati para ihatid ka eh, kaya lang, dadaanan ko pa si Mama bago umuwi." Paalam ni Pao.

"Ganyan ka naman talaga. Sanay na kami, wag ka na mag-explain. Alam namin na hindi mo kami naging priority kahit kelan." Hirit ni Gelo.

"Wag ka na umarte, Alu. Ayaw mo pa talaga? Wala ng MH." Sira rin talaga kukote nito ni Pao eh.