Zabrina

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Life is a funny thing. Almost too much like a chameleon. Always developing, in some way or another. Something funnier, was watching Siri mix taping with some viner. I didn't wait for the video to end to start doing it myself. "Siri what is the power of ten multiplied by a trillion?" The answer was god knows how many zeros, so I just started making weird, popping sounds. God, you suck at this, is probably what my bff would say. Lexi was not the perfect bff to ask for. Her low self esteem made it her mission in life to make others feel bad about themselves too. Why she did it? I have no damn idea. 

No matter how much I unlike, my FB feed is always full of gossipy articles, interesting blogs, and relatable memes, which force me to procrastinate, well, my life. I know it's not healthy, and according to my mom it's a 'fatal addiction'. She reads too many Stephen King novels.

So, tomorrow first day of high school after summer break. Next year I'll be in college, just one more obstacle course to get through. It's basically another Wipeout zone, and I have been eliminated so many times, I can't recall. Lexi is probably dreading it. People like her shine on social media, they can hide their identities over there, their true face. I know Lexi's isn't that pretty to show off. Sorry not sorry, though. 

But at least I have Millicent and Justin to help me get through the days. I consider them my true friends, and we're pretty close. Lexi just sorta tags along because of my popularity. Not meaning to boast or anything, she just does, but I'm not as fake as Claudia and her gang. No thank you, cross my from that list please. My popularity is not sought, it just kinda happened because of my strong opposition of the other gender. It's not that I hate boys or anything, Justin is living proof, I just feel like throwing up at the thought of romantic links.

 Lexi's adulterous descriptions also fail to captivate me. I know what it's like to kiss a boy, I have not spent my life as the most virtuous person on the planet. But as they say, experience is the best teacher. So no, I'd like to reject any offers of random tongues being shoved down my mouth, I like to keep my body parts to myself. 

Milli is the exact opposite of me. She has a boyfriend per week, and she's probably not a virgin for quite some time. Lexi has to stick with a boy for some time cause it isn't as easy for her. Justin has a few crushes, and I urge him to be confident, but even Demi Lovato can't persuade him to admit his feelings.

On times like these, I really don't understand him and his emotions. Of course any hopeless romantic would label this as a crush but I know better than that. Justin and I have known each other since playgroup, and has seen every possible undesirable side of me. So he possibly couldn't have fallen for me, uhuh, no one in their right mind would fall for me after watching me when I have influenza. I'm a good student so that isn't much problem. My field of career still remains a mystery to me. What would I like? Journalism? Writing? Science? Photography? Fashion designing? There are unlimited options and I'm just so confused. 

Most girls my age don't worry about careers. They probably think rich lads are gonna fall for them and be their Prince Charming, end of story, no hard work, no nothing. Ha, I don't plan on being Cinderella my whole life. I'm gonna be a perfectly independent woman living on my own basis and terms, with my own free will, established career, probably in NYC. 

I guess I should go to sleep now. About three am, ugh, I have precisely four hours and thirty two minutes. Why Facebook? Why?