He Speaks Suicide (Phan AU)

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Phil's POV

The phone rings, but I ignore it.

*Beep* "Message received at 3:15 am."

"Hello? Are you there? Phil? Hey look, I'm just trying to get in touch man. I've been so fucking.. so fucking down lately. I don't know what's happening. I'm just so tired all the time. I'm trying to sleep. I just... I just lay there, quite. I can't speak because everyone around me is passed out and my fucking mind is raging. Hello? I-I don't know why I called. I think it might be time for me to leave, just call it quits. I'm sick of this. Every day it's the same fucking day. I think I sleep. I can't be sure. It's all the same thing now. Drink, abuse, drink, drink again. I'm tired of it man. I think it.. Y-you don't wanna hear this. I'm a mess. I'm sorry Phil, I just-I just don't know who to turn to. I don't have anyone. N-no one really hears me you know? I-I speak... at least I think I speak, but no one hears me. I've said enough. Hello? Hello? I shouldn't have called."

"Message deleted"

No. My Dan. He can't be feeling this way. I look up from the phone and see the eyes. Those eyes. His eyes. Wow. How could something so beautiful be so broken?

"P-Phil, don't leave me. P-please." He says and cries. I reach out to touch him.

Nothing.

My hand passes as I watch his shadow walk off.

Gone. Alone. Cold. After Dan leaves, that's all I can feel. I fall to my knees. He's gone. I did nothing.

"I'm not searching the sky," I hear a faint voice sing. I look up.

"For a reason to live," the singing continues as a figure walks closer.

"Cause I found beauty right here and the passion to give." He's back.

"Let me give you my heart," he continues, looking at me.

"Let me give you my tears" he says as he wipes mine.

"Let me give you my life," his eyes lock with mine.

"Let me give you my fears" Dan's lips meet mine.

Slow, passionate, loving. Wow. All was cut off sooner than I wanted.

"Phil, wake up."

"What?" I ask.

"Philly. Wake up,"

"Phil! Wake up!" Kaydence yells and giggles.

"I'm sorry noodle. I'm awake" I laugh lightly when I open my eyes.

"Good. Mum said we need to head into the shops today. Get ready," she smiles and hugs her Elsa doll.

"Okay noodle head. Now get out so I can get dressed," I say and she nods, hugging me.