Saviour

Slán go Fóill (Goodbye for now) Part 36

"I'm uh I'm actually gonna stay with her for a little minute" he takes a seat beside me placing his hand on mine "Oh Maggie why did you leave us? Did I not make you happy enough? I could have made you happy Maggie I could have been better."

My heart is breaking as I listen to him he thinks it's all his fault when he was one of the best things to happen to me I loved him so much I wanted to pull him close to me and just tell him I was too tired to fight on I had lived my life I had done so many things but my time was up now, I would of told him how amazing he is and how much he meant to so many of his fans and that he needs to seize this opportunity to do amazing things to always be kind and always live every single day with as much passion for life as I had done.

He strokes my hand "You'll never leave me Maggie Thorne, from the moon to the bottom of the sea I'll never stop loving you and everything you were." He kisses the top of my head I feel his beard brush my skin he says nothing before leaving the room.

The room grew quiet after that my breathing grows slower with every second I could feel myself getting weak I just need to hear my family's voices once more but the darkness was taking over I'm not even sure I'll make it until they come back.

What I assume is a few hours later I hear the door open and slow footsteps shuffle in

This is it, the final goodbye.

I think back on my life all the low points, when Willow abandoned us to go sit on the beach all night and drown herself in whiskey , but I also think of the happy times before she turned to drink when she used to sit us around the fire at night and sing old songs of peace and love when she used to read her angel cards every day praying for a solution to the depression that was consuming her. I picture her as a beautiful angel in a yellow dress coming to free me of my cage she'll take me away and we'll be free together. I think on all the things I had achieved getting through university travelling the world meeting the love of my life and getting a second chance with him after I messed it up not everyone gets that, It was just as Fallon had said the night of Sals accident I have done a lot of things people would never do.

Fallon takes a seat beside me and I hear what sounds like Apollo climbing up onto a table I can imagine him in my head sitting cross-legged his dreads hanging behind him and tattoos that line his arms. I hear him pick up his guitar strumming softly a final song to send me off I think to myself. I can hear heavy breathing and silent sobbing there's a weight on my chest I don't want them to cry for me. Who's that to my left I want to believe its Grace come to say goodbye but I can't smell the Samsara perfume she covers herself in each day a familiar scent I've come to enjoy while being here

Fallon takes a deep breath and sniffles as Apollo ready's his guitar

"Thanks for the Joy that you've given me,

I want you to know I believe in your soul rhythm and rhyme and harmony,

you helped me along making me strong

oh give me the beat boys and free my soul

I want to get lost in your rock and roll and drift away."

She's stopped she tells Apollo she can't do it anymore she squeezes my hand and kisses me on the forehead I feel her warm tears fall on my face "I love you so much Sparrow I'll think of you always with every wave that crashes, breeze that blows and bird that sings I'll know it's you telling me you're there my baby girl you were always my baby girl and I loved you from the minute you were born I always felt you were my own daughter, look after Me and this little bean I'm carrying won't you? Sleep tight little one."

I feel Apollo wrap something around my limp wrist the string of sea glass is cold on my skin "sweet dreams little Buddy" it's the first time I've heard him cry I feel it ripping my heart in two the weight gets heavier I feel tired I think my siblings realise I don't have much time as the alarm bells sound on the monitor a hidden hand mutes them. They're leaving the room I want to fight but I just don't the spirit.