Not Your Average Nerd

Completely done

Oh yea...

Now I remember. Andrew always liked Luke. More than any guy I ever brought to the house. I just hope he won't notice the torn dress I'm wearing.

"Lucas Turner." He mumbled. Luke nodded upwards. "Sup Drew. Been awhile hasn't it?" Andrew smiled and stepped forward. "Oh come here you big goofball." He brought Luke into a bro hug. I laughed. Why was I so worried again?

Because you're used to having to hide Aiden when he's in there.

I flinch. Okay... So my consciousness may be right. But that means nothing. That was when me and Aiden were dating. We aren't now so it's all good.

"Aaron you didn't tell me Lucas was in town!" I smile and shrug. "You didn't ask."

Andrew has a huge smile on his face as he turns back to Luke. He slaps a hand on his shoulder. "How ya hanging in there dude? Still being chased by girls?"

Like laughs and shakes his head. "You're crazy, man." Andrew laughs and messes up Luke's hair. "Come on, let's go downstairs and talk." Luke turned to me, seeming to ask me if it was okay. I only smiled and nodded. They both started walking away and I was about to turn and go back into my room, but before I could, Luke jogged to me and grabbed my face in his hands, bringing his lips to my forehead.

"Thanks, Aaron." I laugh and shove him away. "Don't thank me. Now go on to your bromance." He smirks and steals a kiss on my lips. Before I could smack him, he was already out of the room.

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After taking a shower and getting ready for bed, I contemplated on what all happened tonight. I saw Aiden there, I decided I should move on and was going to sleep with Luke, Aiden beat up Luke, me and Aiden fought even more, and Aiden kissed me...

I swear, after he had done that it instantly made everything harder. All my choices became blurry and faint. I was indecisive. Like right now, I want to go back to Aiden, but I know I shouldnt. And it's all Aiden's fault. He was the one that overreacted in the first place. And now he suddenly wants to be back with me? My god, he's such an idiot. He should've thought about that when we were arguing last week. Everything is his fault. I lied to him about a lot of shit, yes. But I had good reasons and good motivations that kept my mouth glued shut. But he didn't even think about asking me about my point of view. That damn bastard.

You know what? I should've just never gone to the party-in fact- I should've never moved here. I should've just let my dad kill me off when he had the chance. I should've not shot my mother. I should've never been born. I was an accident anyways. They weren't expecting my mom to get pregnant. And that's what I was always told. By everyone. I'm a screwup. So I don't even get why I'm here.

I dig my palms into my eye sockets, wanting to just push all my memories out. Everything if I can.

I'm an idiot for even getting involved with Aiden anyways. I knew from the begining I would hurt him. Yet I still went after him anyways. Which makes me as stupid as a box of bricks. Speaking of a box of bricks... That's what is on my chest. Either that or an elephant.

While I'm coming up with all these things, I finally drift to sleep, welcoming it with open arms.

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"I love you so much, Aaron... You know that right?" Aiden asks as he hovers above me, only his boxers on. He runs his knuckles over my cheek and neck, his fingernails sending chills through me.

I breath heavily, my head arched back with my whole body on display for him. "I know..." I mutter, hinting at him. Just do it, I wanted to say. Get it over with before I regret it.

But I couldn't say the words. They wouldn't form around my lips and my mind was slowly going blank.

"Aiden." I moaned, gripping his hair when he finally entered me. He kisses my neck. "I will always love you, shortcake.... Always."

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I jump up on the bed, gasping. I catch my breath before realizing it was just a dream. I cross my legs, sighing. I grip my hair.

Dammit. Why the hell do I keep dreaming about him? This is getting ridiculous. I know I miss Aiden. But no matter how much I want him back, I won't let myself. He hurt me, caused me pain. Pretty much broke what I had left of my tiny little heart.

I squeeze my eyes shut, trying to keep my tears inside. It didn't work. My tears fell. Over and over again. I don't even care anymore. I don't care about him hurting me. I don't care about what me and him did. I don't even fucking care about what happens to me anymore. I'm completely done.

I just face dive into my pillow and bury my body into the mattress, waiting for sleep to consume me.

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I know this one is very short. But I couldn't think of anything. I'm slowly losing all inspiration for this story.

For one, school has been overloading me with work so by the time I get home, shower, eat, and do homework I'm ready for bed. Its seriously only 6:55p.m and I am about to fall asleep.

I am about to end this story so just hang in there. I love you guys and want the best. Don't be haters! Or silent readers! Do me a favor and vote! Thanks!

Love you<3 XD

√•JORDAN•√