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Chapter 18 - The New Me

{Sarah's POV}

I look out the window and watch as he gets into his car and drives off. I felt a tear fall down my cheek as I walk away from the window. My heart felt.... like I can't even describe it. Just watching him walk out the door like that my emotions felt like they were in a Taylor Swift album. I was just so confused about anything and everything.

I walked to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I had bags underneath my eyes and the makeup I forgot to take off was smudged all over my face. My hair was a scary mess and now I had mascara running down my cheeks with the tears. I turned on the faucet and splash my face with freezing cold water. I just watched the water turn into droplets and fall down my face. I took a towel from the rack and roughly wiped everything off my face. When I looked up my face was a blank slate. I quickly brushed my teeth and exited the bathroom.

I moved quickly to my closet with a new mindset. I'm not a weak girl confused girl anymore, I'm SARAH a fierce girl not afraid of the world. I opened the closet and looked through and sorted through my clothes. I smiled to myself when I found what I was looking for.

I took the contents out of my closet and placed them on the bed. I put on my skin fitting leapord print dress from forever 21. It was quite tight and it showed my curves in all the right places. It also had two slits cut just above the waistline *pic will be on the side*. I then put on my black leather jacket with studs on the collar. I went back to my closet and found my studded black Steve Madden boots. I walked to my mirror and looked in my jewelry box. I put on my diamond studs and left the necklace Harry gave me on my neck. I went back to the bathroom and pondered on how to do my makeup. My thoughts were interrupted by the knock on the door.

" Sarah.....are you okay?" I turn to see Roxanne at the door.

" Yeah I'm fine." I reply back turning my head slightly watching her sit on the bed.

As I looked into the mirror I noticed Roxanne staring at me strangely.

"What!" I asked turning around slowly.

" What are you wearing?" she pointed to the my outfit of the day choice.

" Do you like it? I'm trying to be more womanly! I don't want to be that weak crying girl! I want to have power and be in control." As I spoke I applied mascara that made my eyelashes look tumblr girl like and makeup that was natural but made my brown eyes sparkle. I then applied bright red lipstick with a pop at the end. I smiled at my reflection. I walked out of the bathroom and twirled for Roxanne. Her mouth was as wide open as her eyes were.

" I didn't know you had THAT kinda body hidden." she informed me looking at me her blue eyes wide in amazement.

" Well I gotta go, don't want to be late for the mentor thingy." I stated.

" Sarah...." she said stopping me in my tracks.

" Sorry for throwing water on you this morning." she apologized and gave me one of her cute adorable smiles.

I just nodded my head and walked out of my room. I went next door to find my brother still sleeping, I quietly kissed his cheek and left. When I reached the bottom of the stairs I heard nothing. I looked towards the kitchen and saw Ariel, Arielle, Rachel, and Kezia looking at me as if I was a ghost.

" You like?.... anyway Arielle and Kezia we have to go for the mentor thing we don't want to be late." I smiled and grabbed a muffin off the table. I walked towards the door and turned to see Arielle and Kezia still standing there.

" Your not coming?" I asked. They looked at each other and then quickly grabbed their bags and followed me out the door.

" Bye ladies!" I stated and closed the door.

When we got into the car it was silent. I turned on the radio and music filled the air. The entire ride was silent, except for when some guys were in a car next to me and tried flirting with me. I just ignored them and drove. When we finally reached the center Kezia broke the silence.

'' Sarah your not going in there dressed like that are you? she asked with concern in her voice.

" Of course I am." I strongly replied back.

" Im going to show Harry what he's missing and the other guys what they want to have." I said and exited the car.

I walked to the door and opened it. Someone had a fan blowing so cliche. It blew my hair back as I walked making me look a runway model. I smiled as I saw guys and girls alike stop and stare. I started to like being the center of attention alot. My "beyonce" moment was cut short when I heard a glass drop. I looked in front of me and saw Liam staring right at me. Actually I could see all the boys except for Harry. I look and see Liam sitting clutching a napkin to his nose and his hand is in a position as if he was holding a glass. I looked to the ground and saw broken glass. I smiled to myself I didn't know I had that affect. I walked over towards Liam and the other boys.

" Damn!" I heard Liam and Zayn say in unison. I just pretended I didn't hear it.

" Omg. Liam what happened to your nose." I asked cautiously examining his nose. Touching it ever so slightly not to hurt him.

" Your boyfriend told me to stay away from you and then he punched me." Liam answered back with a bit of anger.

I was furious. Why would Harry punch my best friend. It's actually quite hot, wait Sarah stop thinking that. I mentally slapped myself and focused on Liam. I leaned over and looked at his nose. Out of the corner of my eyes I noticed Zayn, Louis, and Niall leaning over and smiling. I wondered why, then it hit me my dress. I quickly leaned up and saw them turn around and interest themselves in other things.

" You need to go the hospital!" I informed Liam looking at his nose.

He got up and brushed himself off.

" Im a big boy I can handle myself!" he said smiling.

I laughed at his cheekiness. That's why I loved him he was my friend. Did I just say love. Ok the let me focus back on Liam giving myself another mental slap.

" Okay then." I smiled at the boys as they were just standing there checking me out.

" Like my new look boys?" I asked smiling pointing to my dress. " I want to try something new so I will dress like this more often." I stated and looked down at the broken glass at my feet.

" Yes!" I heard Niall high five someone.

" I heard that." I laughed when his face turned red.

I noticed Zayn just staring at me not taking his eyes off me. I just ignored him and turned to Louis.

" Where's Harry?" My eyes scanned the room and didnt see him.

" He went somewhere to let off some steam." Louis replied calmly. I just nodded and walked away from the boys. I felt their eyes burning the back of my neck, but I knew they weren't looking there. I walked around some boxes and over some plugs looking for Kezia. I needed someone to talk to. I went over to the supply area and it was quite dark and there was a hallway. Before I could walk any further I was slammed into the wall. When I looked up I saw bright caramel colored eyes.

{ A.N}

Hey guys I'm back sorry for cliffhanger and short chapter but my game is back! Just had some writers block, but all I needed to do is read some fan fiction and keep updated on the boys and now I'm fine! I'm so happy we saved Harry from FAKE FRIENDS! Directioners RULE! So cliche but anyway on twitter it's trending #fanfictionstaughtme and they have taught me ALOT of things if u know what I mean. Like I didn't expect to learn some stuff until senior year in highschool or college but one direction taught me so.... Yeah! Back to the real world! Will update soon! Comment if u think you know who the mystery boy is and if u are correct you will get a shoutout! :-)

xoxoxoxo

Sarah