In Love Or Not(Hayes Grier Fanfic)

chapter 9 - The Voices in my head

(Edited)

Jordans pov 

(ring ring )

Ugh

(ring ring)

That stupid alarm

My alarm was making that annoying sound to wake me up,its 9 am and only 5 more hours until magcon meet and greet starts. I really don't feel like going

I got up and walked into my bathroom and saw my relection in the mirror. I looked awful,this person starring back at me ... isn't me. All the memories of last night fills my head as tears start running down my face.

Hayes

Hayes kissing that girl

"I would never do that to you,Jordan. I love you"

He lied

After everything that happened last year I never thought that I would ever fall in love again. But I did,didn't I? And he did the exact same thing as Jake did. He hurt me,crushed me.

He broke me!

I can't go through this again not anymore. I splashed my face with cold water in attempt to wake me up like they did in the movies,but it didn't work

I got into the shower and let the steaming hot water run over my body,I washed myself and got out. I wrapped a fluffly towel around me and stepped into my closet. I put on my underwear and decided on my black skinny jeans with the rips all over and my white "believe" tanktop along with my red and blue flannel tied around my waste and my white converse.

I decided on using some concealer (which I stole from Mahogany) since I looked like a zombie and to cover the black bags under my eyes.

I put on some light lipstick and left my hair hanging

I got my room card,purse and phone and left the room

I walked downstairs into Starbucks and got a ice tea and then I spotted Mahogany

Oh my cheese! MAHOGANY!

I ran towards her

"Oh my cheese! Mahogany,im sooo sorry. I forgot you slept in my room and I locked you out,im so stupid and I-" I started explaining hoping she would understand but she cutt me off

"Babe,it's ok.I knew you would want your space so I just roomed with the boys it's ok." She said giving me a sympathetic smile

"Oh that's good and thanks" I said smiling

"Are you ok though? I heard what Hayes did ugh he's such a dick!" She said

"No,no im ok. Im kind of use to the pain now" I said,then I saw Mahogany staring at my arms

Oh my crap.. the cutts

"Hun,no why!?" She said softly holding up my arms

I felt the tears escaping

"Im sorry- I- please don't tell anyone!" I begged desperately

"Is it because of Hayes?" She asked

"Well,yes. I cutt before him but I stopped two months ago and I began cutting again last night" I said ashamed of myself

"Please! You can't tell anyone" I said

"I promise I won't. Only if you promise to stop cutting" she said

I nodded my head and wiped my tears with the back of my hand and pulled my flannel over my arms

"I have to go and set up some things for later,i'll see you there yeah?" She asked