I sniffed as I packed. Mum thought I was worried about getting homesick and that I was sniffing because I missed her already, she could never be so wrong.
I decided to lie to my parents. I could easily fool them into thinking I was staying at a friend's, but I couldn't put it off any longer. I had to explain myself to him, if he never forgave me for this. I wouldn't know what to do.
"Mum, I'm going to Joe's now" I announced, hoping that she would still believe my story
"Alright honey, I will phone your cell to check you're alright later"
"Alright mum" I replied, grabbing my bag and shutting the stiff front door behind me.
I hoisted my bag upon my shoulder and made my way to his house. I didn't know where I would be staying tonight but I had to take enough things to stop mum getting suspicious. She's been even more protective over me now, since she realised I was gay. I didn't tell her, she found out herself and I didn't deny it, although I wouldn't exactly call myself gay as he's the only guy I've ever been attracted to.
I soon found myself at the end of his street. I sighed and continued walking. I stopped in front of his house
"Explain yourself calmly and everything will be fine" I reassured myself.
However, I could not get myself to walk up his path and knock on his door. I slumped against the brick wall in defeat as a felt a single tear roll down my cheek
"How am I supposed to apologize and explain if I can't even knock on his door" I sniffled upsettingly.
Suddenly my phone beeped, making me jump, it was my mother. I couldn't face her right now, she would be able to tell due to my voice. I ignored it, sending her a text instead
Hey mum. Sorry I just missed you! Me and Joe were in the middle of a pillow fight! Hahaha *Oof!* don't worry about me imma fine, I'll be back around mid-day. See-ya love ya! xx
I sent the message as tears filled my vision and I fell asleep on the cold, hard floor, crying my eyes out like the night before.
