3) Apologize
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yes, i know it's not enough and nothing ever will be. I really am sorry.
Dancing by yourself,
Drinking by yourself.
Drug addiction at its best.
Do you ever give it a rest?
Did you stop and think
Why would you do this?
Why would you damage yourself?
Do you ever think?
-chorus-
Stop, I hate myself as it is
Stop, I'm fine it was just once
Stop, Help me I'm breaking
Stop, I only had one.
Don't ignore me I need you.
Don't leave me, it'll break me
Don't make me hate myself more
Stop, I've hit my breaking point.
I've tried to stop but it's hard
I've tried to walk away but it's hard
I'm a drug-addled mess.
I'm an emotional disaster.
I've betrayed your trust.
I've made you hurt.
But I can't say anything.
Sorry can't fix everything
-chorus-
It hurts when I Know you ignore me.
It hurts when you know you're breaking me
My soul isn't indestructible
I've made many mistakes, and some are unforgivable.
I run away from my problems.
I'm a coward, and I'm scared easily.
I run out of words,
And that's when the world burns.
-chorus-
I can't find words to say it.
I'm sorry, but I can't change it.
I felt terrible the second It did
I'm a heartless, soulless bitch
Is that what you want?
I'm a terrible person.
I've started fights.
All I cause is hurt.
Somethings just blurt.
Why is this so upbeat?
And it kills me slowly,
Knowing I hurt you.
And it kills me slowly
Knowing it's time number 2.
And it kills me slowly
That sorry can't fix it.
And it kills me slowly,
Because I'm a drug addicted, emotional disaster.
-chorus-
Help, I'm trying to fix things
Help, I don't want an ending.
Help! All I want is you to know,
Help, If you want I can just go.
Don't ignore me I need you.
Don't leave me, it'll break me
Don't make me hate myself more
Stop, I've hit my breaking point.
I hate myself more every day.
All because I wanted my way.
But I've hit my breaking point
Not much more I can take
I'm sorry, But I can't undo what I've done.
I can't un-smoke the weed.
I can't un-drink the vodka.
I can't un-kiss your boyfriend.
I can't un-pop that xanex
I can't un-break your heart
I can't un-wiccan myself
I can't un-cut my arm
I can't undo these.
All I can do is apologize.
