Dont Be a Bully (A Mindless Behavior Story)

Problems

My thoughts are interrupted by a knock on my door.

"What do you want"

"Are you decent?"

"Go away!"

"It's me Princeton"

"I know, go away"

"I'm coming in"

I throw my pillows over my head

I feel my bed sink in at my feet so I guess he sat down.

"How are you feeling"

"I'm ok. Why are you here?"

"Well your mother invited me over."

Ugh my mother of course

"Oh"

"So what are you doing today"

"Well gosh what do people usually do after they recently are released from the hospital" I say in an overly sarcastic tone.

He laughs "oh right."

We sit in total silence. Torture, irony all I wanted was him and now here he is, on my bed and I'm not enjoying a second of it.

I'm sad, confused and guilty. Sad because most likely hes only here because he thinks it's his fault I almost died.. confused to why a terrible girl like me has a beautiful sweet generous boy like Princeton and guilty because I sit here allowing him to believe that he harmed me. Why do good things happen to horrible people like me?

"Shanell"

He starts tapping me.I don't respond. I feel terrible tears fill my eyes as my guilt takes over. I try my best to sob silently but I sniffle a few times.Then I feel a hand rubbing my back.

"Shanell please don't cry."

The fact that he's so sweet but clueless makes me weep even more.

"Shanell what's wrong?" I feel him move closer to my side.

"I'm a terrible person." I mumble from under my pillows.

"No you're not"

I feel a slight tug as he removes my pillows from my head.

"Yes I am" I say face down into my bed

Then I feel his hands grab my stomach and he rolls me over.

[Prod]

I can't take it anymore. The lies and secrets. It hurts even more everytime. Roc and Nicole kissed. I'm not mad, depressed or calm. I feel empty. I don't know what to feel. I walk around for a while and reach the park and just sit under this tree. Soon after it begins to rain.

"You ok Prod?"

I know its Ray. Im not in the mood to talk.

"Are you gonna tell me why you sitting in the rain?"  he asks

I know he's notgoing to quit asking because he's a real friend so I decide to tell him.

"Roc kissed Nicole"

"He did what!"

"It's a long story but basically they kissed."

"How could he do that?"

"I don't know Ray."

"Did you talk to him or Nicole"

"Roc came and told me"

"How you feeling?"

"I don't know. I just feel like sitting in the rain"

"Ok. I'll sit here too then"