My Sweet Desire : Nickolo Ortega

TSDNO : Part 39 - The Proposal

Ehm's Pov :

"Mom, can i bring Putchie, too?" Isha asked while i'm packing their things. She's referring to her pet dog. A shih tzu.

"No baby, you can't bring her. Pets are not allowed on the plane."

"Ohh, that's sad, Mom. Who will take care of her when we're gone?" I looked at my daughter. Nakayuko siya habang hinahaplos ang puting balahibo ng alaga niya. Sinara ko muna yong maleta nilang magkakapatid bago ko siya nilapitan. Umupo ako sa tabi niya.

"Diba iiwan natin siya kay Tito Mark at Tita Steff. You agreed to that, right? We can buy another pet pagdating natin dun."

"But i want her Mom. Huwag na tayong umalis Mommy, we can still leave here naman po, diba?"

Napasinghap ako sa sinabi ng anak ko. Kung pwede lang eh, kaso alam ko namang mahihirapan lang kami pag patuloy kaming maghihintay sa walang kasiguraduhan.

"Baby, we already talked about it. Even your brothers agreed about this. Bakit ba ayaw mong umalis tayo?"

"How about daddy, mom? What if he'll come back and we're not here already? For sure, daddy will get sad."

"Isha..ilang beses ko bang sasabihin sayo na di na babalik ang daddy mo. If he really want to come back, sana noon pa. It's been over a year. Sa tingin mo ba, di nahihirapan si Mommy? I want us to move on, ayaw ko na ng ganito. Hindi kana bata para hindi ako maintindihan, you're six and i know alam mo kung anong sinasabi ko. Hindi na babalik ang daddy mo dahil may iba na siyang mahal. Naiintindihan mo ba ako? i shouted in anger.

I don't want this to happen pero di ko na kayang maglihim sa mga anak ko. Ayaw ko na silang umasa sa pagbabalik ng daddy nila. Alam kong masasaktan sila pero mas masakit sakin kong maghihintay sila at aasa pero sa bandang huli'y mabibigo rin.

Niyakap ko ang anak ko pero tinulak niya ako.

"I hate you Mommy, you're lying..." she said in tears. Tumakbo siya papunta sa kama at doon umiyak. I want to comfort her pero alam kong di niya ako pakikinggan sa ngayon.

It's better to leave her now.

Palabas na ako ng room nila ng makasalubong ko naman yong dalawang anak ko. With their face expressions, alam kong narinig nila yong sigaw ko.

"What's wrong mom?" tanong agad ni Ivan sakin.

"Just a little misunderstanding with your sister anak." i told them.

"Tungkol ba to sa pag-alis natin Mommy? Don't worry po, she's just upset cause he can't bring Putchie and she's still hoping for Dad to come home." Nicky said. The word that he blurted catches my attention. Kung ganun, alam din nilang pwedeng hindi na bumalik ang daddy nila.

"I know you were hiding this to us Mom, but we knew everything since then. We're not that dumb. Even Isha knew about this, i told her about it. But still, she keep on hoping and waiting. Daddy promised her and she's holding on that. We understand you Mom, you were doing this for us, for our sake. We'll always be here for you." Naiyak ako sa sinabi ni Ivan. Lumuhod ako at pareho ko silang niyakap.

"Mahal ko din kayo. Mahal na mahal. I'm sorry if i didn't tell you about this. Natatakot kasi akong masaktan kayo. Ayaw kong nakikita kayong nasasaktan." lumuluha kong sabi sa kanila.

"We knew, Mom." they both said.

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