Soulmates (Frerard)

9: Nobody Said Loving Him Was Going To Be Easy; I Love You

I awoke to a sound asleep Gerard. The only thing was, we were still in the fucking cemetery. Fuck, we must've fallen asleep. Which means, we didn't fucking kiss. God, why do I keep dreaming about us kissing?

...because I think I like him. More than a friend.

No, I don't. I don't like anyone more than a friend. I can't. I can't love him like that. Hell, I can't love him at all. I can't keep dreaming of us kissing. I can't ever let him kiss me. I can't kiss him. I can't. I just can't.

I gently shook Gerard awake. His eyes snapped open. "Huh, W- where-? Oh," Gerard muttered, looking around frantically. He looked straight at me. "Oh... Okay." He said.

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We talked a little before heading back to Ray's. Well, I guess I could call it home, but I've never really done that, so, yeah.

Gerard walked over to me once the room was vacant. "Frank, can I talk to you?" He asked me quietly. I nodded and he took my hand and lead me back to our room. He closed the door and sat down beside me.

"What's up, Gee?" I asked him, studying the worried and nervous expression on his face. Gerard gulped and looked me in the eyes. Oh god, I think I know what he's about to do.

"I- I... I think I love you," Gerard whispered, taking my hand in his. I just sat there, completely frozen. Wake up, Frank. You're dreaming again. You seem to always be dreaming. "Frank?" Gerard whispered softly.

"Huh?" I asked, blinking as I snapped out of my thoughts.

"I said I... I think I love you," he stated, looking into my eyes and then I knew he was telling the truth. "Y- you don't have to say anything, but I... I do. I think I love you, Frank. And... And I just..." He leaned in to kiss me and I turned my head. "I'm sorry," Gerard whispered.

I shook my head. "I'm sorry," I corrected, sighing out as I spoke. Gerard shook his head and stood up. He walked over towards the door. "Wait, you don't have to go..."

He nodded. "Just going to give you some privacy," Gerard said, walking out the door. I walked over to listen to Gerard's conversation with Ray.

"Well, what did he say?" I heard Ray ask, and then I heard Gerard sighing.

"He said hardly anything," Gerard stated, a bit of devastation in his voice. "This is really hard to deal with because I love him a whole lot."

"Nobody said loving him was going to be easy," Ray replied, sighing. I imagined Gerard nodding. "Just... I don't know."
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Later that night, I was in the room as Gerard was changing clothes to get ready for bed. I couldn't help but watch the whole time. I couldn't help but to start thinking.

He sat next to me and smiled lightly. He should be going out with Ray and stuff, but no. He said he would stay with me. He would keep me company.

While he was changing, I noticed his scars.