Merciless Loop

CHAPTER 05 - Anything but This

“N-nyannyan?”

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Her scream echoed throughout the dark room. Clanging sounds of chains battling with gravity accompany the uneven breathing of a sobbing girl as she hits the punching bag with her bare fist. Sweat and tears dampen her slender body as she let all those dark emotions swelling up her heart reach the poor bag.

“Why?” a question that if only the walls could talk, they would complain to the number of times it was asked. “Why this?” she punched the bag with all her might as tears rolls down her face. “Anything… anything… but please not this…”

Her knees were shaking. Her arms are starting to shiver with emotions of anger and distraught. “J-just kill me…” she wept and slumped on the ground. “JUST LET ME DIE ALREADY!!!!”

It was a cry of despair and hopelessness as those bare fists that’s almost covered with blood punched the ground as she continuously gasps for breath. “Please…” It was a battle of silence and hysterical breathing. “Please… I don’t want this anymore…”

The door opens. “H-haruchan?”

Seeing her sister hopelessly collapsed on the floor covered with blood, she rushed over to the sobbing girl. “H-haruchan what happened?”

“Keiko oneechan!” Haruna cried and hugged her sister tightly. “kill me… Kill me.. I don’t…” she uttered in between sobs, sentence ended in an uncontrollable cry.

Watching over her little sister for the longest time, this is the first time she’s seen her hopeless. She knows Haruna can handle everything but there is this one time that she acts this way as well. She wasn’t this hopeless then but Keiko knows Haruna can’t deal with this anymore if ever it were to happen again.

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"...Nyannyan, I want you to meet my boyfriend..."

"B-boyfriend?"

"Un! Actually, my fiancee... We're getting married six months from now... And guess what, I... I want you to be my bridesmaid." the short girl cheerfully announced looking intently onto the tall girl's eyes.

"N-no... This aint real." Haruna suddenly broke down in tears."This didn't happen before... Please tell me you're joking."

"Nyannyan... I'm sorry..."

"Yuuchan... Please tell me that you're joking...please..."

"Nyannyan... I want you to be free from me..."

"No... Yuuchan... Anything... Anything but that... Please..."

"Come here..." Yuko enveloped the crying girl within her embrace. "You suffered long enough... This time, let me release you from the bond that keeps your heart with me."

"Yuuchan... Yuuchan no... I can't..." her sobbing brought her to the ground hugging Yuko's legs.

"Nyannyan... Listen to me... Maybe this is the right ending for the both of us... Maybe this will end all your suffering." Yuko smiled in tears.

"I... I thought you love me... I thought you finally loved me..." she cried uncontrollably. "You didn't... Right?" a forceful laugh made its way behind all the sobbering sounds. "So it was... It was all a lie..."

Yuko remained silent as she watches Haruna struggle her breathing. "I'm sorry..."

"Does he love you?" the tall girl managed to ask. Yuko nodded in response. Tears kept on falling from Haruna's cheeks like she's got an ocean of it inside of her. "Do you... Love him?"