Phan oneshots

[20] Blind Love pt 1

Phil walked around the school mindlessly, trailing his fingers along the dirty white walls.

He remembered going to this school a few years ago. Now, it was his younger sister's school.

Phil glanced at his phone to check the time before sighing.

He was supposed to fetch Suzy from school at 1, but his clock was fast by 15 minutes, so he rushed over, thinking that he was going to be late when he was in fact early by 20 minutes.

"What's the point of going back when I'm just going to come back here later again." Phil muttered to nobody in particular and went back to walking around the now empty corridors, relieving childhood memories.

All of a sudden, he heard faint sounds coming from a room across the corridor.

Curious, he entered the room which was decorated with music notes and instruments. And in the corner of the room was a black grand piano with a brown haired man clad in black playing it.

The melodic sound of fingers hitting piano keys entered Phil's ears and filled him with calmness at how all the notes just blended so perfectly together but it also made him jealous of how he could never play as well as the brown haired man.

"Hey there, I was-" Phil opened his mouth to speak but was cut off when the man suddenly stopped playing and jumped up in surprise.

"Oh I'm so so sorry, I'm just waiting to fetch my little brother up but I was here early so I decided to explore this school which I used to go to and I just thought I'd visit the music room for old times sake and I couldn't help but play the piano-" the guy started rambling on and Phil had to cut in.

"No no it's fine, I'm not the teacher anyways, I'm fetching my sibling too. I'm Phil, what's your name?"

The brown haired man widened his eyes and gasped, "Ph-Phil? As in Phil Lester?"

Phil awkwardly nodded, "Yeah? How'd you know my last name?"

Phil clearly didn't know the guy, he recognised faces very well and he didn't think he ever met this person before. If not, Phil would definitely remember meeting such a cute guy like him. Wait what?

"I-I'm Dan, Dan Howell..." The guy trailed off, wrapping his arms around himself.

Phil took a step back in surprise. Right in front of him was Dan Howell, his schoolmate in primary and secondary school, the guy he used to bully constantly for being gay and weird for always cooping himself up in the music room.

Phil didn't know what to say, he was at a loss for words, "Dan? But you've changed...you lost your floppy hair and your style is different. You've grown taller and buffer."

Dan let out a nervous laugh, "Yeah, well I may have changed physically but inside I'm still nerdy Dan."

"Are you still...uh...gay?" Phil blurted out then immediately regretted for being so blunt.

Dan laughed once more but Phil could sense bitterness in it, "Of course, you can't just turn straight. It's not a 'phase' so yes, I still like boys. You have a problem with that? Are you going to beat me up again?"

Phil's breath got hitched in his throat, "N-no, I'm sorry for being blunt. I know apologising will never take back those bruises and insults I gave you last time but I'm really really sorry. I was a stupid twat hiding behind my insecurities by taking it out on you. I shouldn't have done that."

Dan scoffed and opened his mouth to say something but then thought better of it and looked away.

"Yeah yeah, whatever. What's past is the past right?" Dan stood up from the piano chair, "I think I should go, my brother doesn't like me being late."

"But they won't be released till another few minutes!" Phil exclaimed, surprising himself at how he didn't want Dan to leave.

Dan furrowed his eyebrows and shrugged, ignoring Phil's comment and stood up to leave.

Phil's heart dropped at how Dan wanted to get away from him. He understood why Dan would feel this way but it still hurt him.

"Why am I feeling this way anyway?It's not like I still like him or anything..." Phil thought.

Dan fumbled around before steadying himself on a long cane beside the piano and tapped the ground repeatedly as he walked off.

Phil was confused, why did Dan need a cane for? Unless... Phil widened his eyes as realisation dawned on him.

"Y-you're blind?" Phil stuttered.

Dan stopped momentarily before scoffing, "Nah, I just like walking around with a cane. Of course I'm blind!"

"But...but how?"

Dan sighed at the bitter memory, "It was during graduation in secondary school. I was in the bathroom cleaning up when the graduation ceremony ended when you and your 'gang' came and started calling me names. Do you remember?"

Phil could hear the blood flowing in his ears, he was the one who caused it?

Dan continued, "You started kicking me and shoving me around, but you shoved a little too hard and I hit the sink and passed out. You guys ran away in terror. Turns out, I hit one of the nerves in my eyes pretty hard and my eyesight started getting worse till I eventually turned completely blind."

Phil was at a loss for words, he never meant to hurt Dan like that. What had he done...?

"But I didn't tell on you guys you know? I just said that I slipped and fell. I saved your asses when all you have been doing was ruin mine." Dan spat out.

"But w-why?" Phil asked, confused.

"Because I-I...!" Dan swallowed nervously, "Whatever, it's nothing."

Phil grew even more confused as Dan spoke.

"I don't get it, why would you do such a thing when all I've been was horrible to you." Phil's voice barely came out as a whisper but Dan caught it anyway.

"It's because I liked you, okay? I liked you! Despite you changing in secondary school, I still saw the happy primary school Phil who would smile at everyone and be nice to even the worst of bullies. I fucking liked you Phil Lester, since primary 6 in fact, but you never returned it back. Instead, you changed and started hurting me. Like I wasn't hurting inside already." Dan let out all his pent up feelings in a torrent of anger and dismay, shocking Phil and causing him to take a step back.

"You...you what?" Phil stuttered, not believing what Dan said.

But before Phil could say another word, Dan rushed out of the room, holding out his cane to guide him.

"Dan liked me..." Was all Phil could say out as he stared at the spot where the brown haired boy stood before he left.