Though I'm Missing You... (COMPLETED)

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It wasn't suppose to happen. I never thought I would cheat on Ny. I love Anaya with all my heart.

This shit I had going on with Mia wasn't suppose to happen. I never intended to fuck her. I knew she was Ny's best friend. I never came on to her she came on to me.

We started fucking around a while back and I tried to stop her but she was so tempting.

Always bending over with her too little clothes on. Rubbing up against me when Ny wasn't looking and sending me nudes every chance she got.

She didn't have shit on Ny but temptation got the best of me and I fucked up. I fucked up bad mane.

I still don't have a legitimate reason on why I actually fucked with her.

I should've never let it go on for so long. I should've never did what I did. Now I fucked up.

Damn. What have I done? I thought to myself.

The look on her face when she caught me and Mia hurt me. How could I be a fuck nigga and break her heart?

Yeah, our relationship wasn't perfect.

We've been on and off for almost 8 years but I will always love Ny and she will always love me.

I can't lie it had been a minute since me and Ny had sex.

With her working long hours at the hospital, a nigga been hella horny and beating my meat just wasn't cutting it no more.

It was temptation that fucked me up bad. I don't think I will ever have her back.

I lost the only woman who I actually loved besides my momma.

I lost the only one who actually loved me and never left my side.

The question is will she forgive me? Can we move on and still be together?

I know it was wrong to step out on her while we was together but I will never forget when she was with a fuck nigga years ago when we wasn't together.

I forgave her and we moved on but I fucked up fucking with Mia.

I should've thought with my head and not my dick. That's where I fucked up at.

I have to get her back. I can't lose her. I can't lose my Anaya Janae Smith. I will do anything to have her back in my arms...