Slipknot's girls

Chapter 17 - After Paul

I lay in bed and yawned before hearing a giggle, I looked towards the sound and seen Shannon leaning against the door, her smile fell and she frowned "so Joey and I are fighting again" she whispered sitting at the bottom of my bed

I rubbed my eyes before sitting up "awe babe that's shit" I whispered stretching, she nodded before we heard Joey's voice getting closer "Shannon we aren't done yet!" He shouted, I stood up and placed my hands on my hips "she's done Joey, leave it for later!" I snapped, he looked at me for a moment before looking at Shannon "come on Shannon!" he snapped grabbing her arm "Joey fuck off!" I shouted pushing him away from her, he fell back causing a loud thump when his back hit the wall "what the fuck lilly! this is between me and Shannon, so mind your business!" he snapped, I looked at Shannon before smiling at him "she's my best mate Joey" I said "don't you and Sid need to sort out shit or something, or have you gone back to Fucking Chris behind his back" he snapped "that's fucked up Joey!" Shannon shouted, I walked away with Shannon not far behind me, I quickly walked to the sitting room to see sid and Chris talking while Craig and Corey played cards

I plopped down next to Sid followed by Shannon then Joey stormed in "what did I upset you Lilly" he said in a childish voice, Sid looked at me before looking at Joey "you've been acting like this since we lost Paul! Do you think he'd like to see you acting like this?" I asked angrily "you take your anger out on us because you can't Fucking deal with his dead, wake up Joey he's Fucking dead, he died" I shouted

"Hey guys chill out" Corey interrupted "don't speak about Paul" Joey threatened "why because you know I'm right, right" I said only to have him lunge at me and land a smack on my face "woh Joey for fuck sake" Chris said as he pulled him away

"Before he died you would never have done something like this, and now you've changed" I said, Joey looked at everyone "fuck you guys I'm out, I'm done!" He shouted before he left

I excused myself and went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror before rubbing my cheek where the hand mark stood out like a sore thumb, I groaned feeling guilty for the shit I said, I knew it was true but I shouldn't have been so ... mean about it, just then the door opened and Joey appeared "hey, I'm sorry about earlier, you're right" he said, I bit my lip and nodded slightly "I'm sorry for being a bitch about it Joey" I said before slowly wrapping my arms around him and giving him a hug that I think we both needed.

My scream echoed around the house as I stood at the front door staring at my family who all had weak smiles on their faces "what are you doing here?" I asked as I finally let myself smile "well Lilly, we came here to bring you home" dad said, my smile wavered and he cleared his throat "we want you to come back home, just so you are home, we don't want you to fall into the hole you did the first time" I stumbled back, I don't know why his impacted me so much but right now I felt like someone hit me with a car

Soon but not soon enough Sid showed up "hey what's -" he stopped when he seen my family slowly entering the house then he looked into my eyes then back at them then back to me like he wasn't sure who to look at "hello" he smiled finally looking at my family, he reached over and shook my dads and mums hands before looking at me again "we are just here to bring Lilly home" dad said making Sid's head snap up to look at him "what?" He asked before turning his attention back to me "Lilly, your leaving?" His voice cracked mid sentence showing me he was upset about this sudden news, what he didn't know was I was in as much shock as him "no I'm not" I whispered "sweetheart please" mum begged "look guys, the band are finally playing after Paul.... I'm not discussing this until they preform for Paul" I snapped, they all nodded before leaving the house, I sighed in need to touch Sid, I pressed my face against his chest and growled quietly "you were planning on leaving?" He whispered still sounding sad about it, I looked up at him and touched his face "no, they just showed up, that's why I screamed, I nearly had a heart attack" he had his eyes closed since I touched his face and he still didn't open them, I slid my hand to back of his head and snuggled against him again "I don't want to go" he inhaled deeply before kissing my neck "I don't want you to go either" I pulled away from him to see his loving but hungry eyes, ohh how I love those sexy eyes, "I'm not planning on going anywhere" I reassured, he smiled before Mick walked into view "guys we have to get going" he said, I smiled and Sid slowly released me

"Down boy" I giggled, he smiled and bit his lip, I slowly walked away only to have him grab my shorts and pull me back to him and he smashed his lips to mine when we parted he whispered breathlessly "that's my girl right there" before he scooped me into his arms and carried me into the sitting room to the others.

2 minutes, 2 minutes of silence, 2 minutes to remember everything about Paul gray, in this 2 minutes every moment I had with Paul ran through my head, but mostly his hugs, a person like Paul is one in a million and I never let myself actually think about everything that we would miss about him and before I realised it I was on my knees crying while looking at his suit and mask on a stand center stage with millions standing showing their respect for Paul.